Dickie

GSS FOX SCOUT GROUP

2010-02-09T03:26:00.003+08:00

I never thought this would happen so fast but it feels great to finally feel a sense of attachment to my boys. Getting to know every single one of them better, crack my head to think of improvements for weekly meetings, well, i've never done all these or at least take much pride or effort in doing it. I want things to happen. I want things to change but more importantly, i want them to have fun.

When i was a venture and about to embark on ops rovering, i always had picture that i would be the bad guy and the boys wouldnt like me that much. At least that was my experience as a boy.

However, its all very different now. If they make a mistake, i would rather sit down and discuss with them instead of resorting to ''violence''.

During the first day where the sec1s came in, as i was teaching them about knots and other scouting matters, i found myself pausing for a brief moment and i looked at the rest of the boys who were doing footdrill at that moment. I realised how fast it will be for them to grow up and be like the rest.

I cant really find the words but i somewhat feel honoured to be given the opportunity to guide these boys in whatever capacity i am capable of.

Vincent once mentioned that he feels the sense of accomplishment to see through the boys grow from sec1 untill they graduate. Maybe i'd be able to see through his eyes afterall and hope to gain the experiences that he got as well.

Well, i hope for the best and for everything to all go well.. or at least as planned. ;D

Fuck this

2009-12-16T00:49:00.003+08:00

Well, how I am feeling right now isnt the best feeling one could ever have. I feel rather lonely and depressed. And i realised that how i go about dealing with it in the past was either through meeting a friend to keep my mind off things or submit to alcohol which helps very much in supressing the feelings.

I am so miserable i nearly booked tickets to go KL and spend a few days in the quiet kampong to ease my mind. But i stayed because i didnt want my gf to feel how i am feeling, lonely. So i stayed.

There are times i would just sit all by myself, with a can of beer in my hand and a cig on the other. Sometimes it helps.. but not always.

I tend to look out the window every now and then just looking at the sky or even the people down below who go about their normal life and wondering what's really on their minds.

I dont speak as much as i used to, and i have my reasons. I used to be rather talkative, even with strangers but i reaslised how vulnerable you get when you share things with people. They use it against you. They judge, they critic. And they're called people. Sometimes, family.

What is life really?

Have you ever thought about the time when you'll die? Would all the things you ever did in life mattered? And if you believe in heaven and hell, how long would you stay there? Forever sounds very long. The word 'forever' is an understatement really.

Have you ever thought how the world would have been if you were not born? Then you'd think to yourself that such a thought would only exist because you're alive. So many questions in life.. questions that only matters when your life is coming to an end. Questions i think of when i get sober from yesterday's intoxication.

I need to get away from it all. Movie marathons and late night jogs dont cut it anymore. So does alcohol. I need something else. I need it fast...

2009-10-13T20:16:00.000+08:00

Everywhere I looked, I couldn’t find it.

I looked into my friends, it wasn’t there.

I looked into my family, it wasn’t there.

I looked into my love one, it wasn’t there.

I searched deep within myself.. still it wasn’t there.

The will to strive for excellence, it was nowhere to be found.

Nor is the will to even leave bed.

Falling ill reassured me that hope is lost.

I searched places unimaginable.. even in movies/clips.

For I was in desperate need of guidance.

Realising that there are worse scenarios out there didn’t comfort me as it once used to.

As I believe that one should look up and compare to those up high instead of those down below.
But it does keep me down here on earth.

I need time, by myself.

To find my soul. My motivation. My will.

I’ve searched everywhere..

I need time still.

2009-09-19T01:36:00.000+08:00

Things that were once taken for granted would somehow and someday be slapped in your face in the worst way possible.

I sincerely appreciate those who stood and still standing by me through this harsh period of mine. I have had my share of bad moments where nothing seemed to be right but what happened recently was nothing compared to those times. A benchmark in life it was.

I am not proud to share my experience here in public but I am sure those who know about the incident are those I am proud to have in my life.

It wasn’t easy at first as everything happened in just a short span of time and it also got me thinking of why life is being unfair, but it all came at the later part, where It got me realising that there are lessons to learn from all that.

Beautiful family is. Beautiful friends are. Beautiful love is.

Grateful I am to still be here to share the joy and happiness with the people I have in life. Those who have gone and passed, I am glad to have lived amongst them.

I shan’t go further like an emokid but I’m ever so grateful to still have people around me who care.

On another note, Massha and I have reached our 1st year together as a couple.

All the ups and downs we had. All it ever did was got us closer together.

To many more years to come my love.

I love you dearest. Truly do.

7 Sins

2009-08-14T02:19:00.002+08:00

Motivation. It comes from many places or people for that matter.

It can sometimes be as hot as the blazing flames and it could sometimes just be for a spur moment. Whatever the source or reason for the motivation be, it is definitely something that pushes people who in turn push their limits and break barriers.

Stories of such people who we sometimes see as extraodinaires. They fight for a cause. Be it for love, lust or passion. Many of such drives us and gives us what we know as, motivation. Intrinsic or extrinsic, it works well in leading people towards their goals.

But to what that makes an individual able to continue burning his flames of motivation, despite all the challenges and obstacles encountered by him, defying them and continue fighting and pushing his limits, is something not many are able to do.

On many occasions, it withers instead of flourishing into yet another burst of motivation.

So what makes us stronger? I believe it all depends on each and every person.

I was made aware recently of the 7 sins which we, men are always being tempted with, and I can't help to think that motivation could somehow intertwine with them. Motivation I mentioned really depends on whether it is driven intrinsically or extrinsically. The 7 sins which i spoke of could well be the drive to these two main motivating factors. In a nutshell, motivation also has its motivation(driving factor). And this is how it's possible.

Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Wrath, Envy, Pride.

Take your time and digest it. I honestly believe that majority of our decisions made everyday is being influenced by these very 7 sins.

Here are some daily examples;

I want to be rich and successful in life. Pride? Greed? Or simply the lust for riches?

I hate my boss, and i wish he'd die a terrible death! Wrath? Envy?

There are many more example out there which i dread to mention and i need to highlight that these application of the 7 sins to our thoughts and decisions need not necessarily be true but it could just be one of the many reasons. That, i would leave it to you to decide.

I would like to further state my point that men including some of us have definitely one way or another been tempted or even committed at least one of the 7 sins. We sometimes even use these sins to motivate ourselves. And here are some of the signs which I believe are signs of the mentioned 7 sins.

Fornication, rape, adultery, incest, perversion, just some of the many examples of such lust in which we humans commit to. It is through such lust some men would be motivated enough to kill. They would go defy all odds just to satisfy their “needs”.

Theft, robbery, trickery, bribery, murder and many more examples of men’s doings are just the very few in which we men commit. Ultimately, it is inevitable that any one of our actions is closely related to the 7 sins that we are all aware of.

It is nature at its best. We humans can use them to power our thoughts and motivate us into achieving our goals, be it of good nature or bad. Some sins even motivate us unknowingly.

And like I said, not all our actions are driven/motivated by the 7 sins but I am very sure that men, as we are, there would definitely be a chance that we were once poised and tempted to at least one of the 7 sins.

Have you?

2009-07-14T00:29:00.004+08:00

So training is on-going. We're short of time but we're doing great so far.

To us, its not much on the speed but the consistency. Training days are on Monday,Tues,Thurs,Saturday. Honestly, its been awhile since i felt such commitment in something.

So yeap, our goal this year is the Standard Chartered 2009: 42.195Km.

However, before that, we're going for RunNUS on 30th August: 12Km.

I see that the RunNUS is a totally different ball game altogether. Somewhat like ippt 2.4km run, its all about the timing,..

Oh ya, did I mention that the Singlet for RunNUS this year looks awesome?

And one more thing.. I think im gonna name this preparation for marathon. . . .

*DRUMROLLS*

OPERATIONS EYE OF THE TIGER!

lol.. okbye!

2009-07-13T01:15:00.003+08:00

Refreshing it is to listen and recite the Scout Hymn again. Different from reciting the national pledge which agenda is to instill patriotism in oneself, the Scout Hymn is something that allows me to reflect on myself and my goals in life.

Now, how often do you find that in a song nowadays..

----------THE SCOUT HYMN------------

Now as I start upon my chosen way,

In all I do, my thoughts, my work, my play.

Grant as I promise, courage new for me,

To be the best, the best that I can be.

Help me to keep my honour shining bright,

May I be loyal in the hardest fight,

Let me be able for my task, and then,

To earn a place among my fellow-men.

Open my eyes to see the things as I should,

That I may do my daily turn of good,

Let me be ready, waiting for each need

To keep me clean in thought and word and deed.

So as I journey on my chosen way,

In all I do, my thoughts my work, my play,

Grant as I promise, courage new for me

To be the best, the BEST that I can be.

---------------------END----------------------

2009-07-10T02:07:00.002+08:00

Never will I see People's Republic of China like I once used to.

I've been doing a little research on my own in the heritage and history of Chinese History, not just during the Imperial times, but also on Ancient China.

I used to be very captivated by the stars up above. Reading extensively on the formation of galaxies and whatnots,

but, I came to a realization that there is only so much information I can aquire from Astronomy.

I never liked history especially in Secondary School because the thought of just memorizing the necessary information and vomitting them during exams make me nausea.

I prefer leisure history. Thats what I call it now. To read, digest and learn. There are just so much to know about Chinese history.

I feel that History has got many lessons for us to learn. Compare a man back then and a man now. So much difference.

Valour and gallantry of that of a historic person is something I admire greatly. In other words, you dont see much balls around that often anymore. heh!

And the literature.. wow.. dont get me started on that. Such beautiful language man used to speak.

I'm so into the History of China to the extend I keep striking conversations with my PRC friend in class and she was so nice to share pictures of China to me and also abit on its' history.. Coolness..

Looking forward to many upcoming adventures ahead!

2009-07-10T01:50:00.003+08:00

The security within oneself is adequate.

Shielded by our own thoughts and believes, sufficient.

Allowing blood to interfere and mingle now is trivial.

Smiles you see,

merely vague images painted.

Painted on cold porcelain masks.

Deceiving. True. Shattering.

Severe all ties, befitting.

Life's Great

2009-07-01T02:32:00.004+08:00

So where do I start?

Its been months since i last updated this blog of mine.

Life's been great anyways. Everything seems to fall into place.

Family, Friends and of course my dearest, Massha.

Its coming to a year now that we're together but it felt like we've known each other for years.

We've had our conflicts yes, but it would always end up making our r/s stronger thereafter. I am very much in love with her and I hope we'd go the distance.

Recently, I felt that I've not been spending much quality time with my family. So what I did was call them all up for dinner. It turned out better than I expected and I plan to do it at least once a month. It makes me feel happy to see my family coming together from our packed schedule to just sit down, have dinner together and talk just about anything.

Friends? Well, I have great ones. Those who stood by me through crappy days and also laughed with me during the good times. Thanks guys.

Like I said, everythings coming into place.

Life's great. (:

Bad Day

2009-04-04T03:58:00.002+08:00

A BAD DAY

I bet even Daniel Powter's bad day cant compare to mine today!

#1: Okay, so here goes.. I've started working again for the bubble co. that Xh introduced to me. I was to report at HP Headquarters at 9am but little did i know that 963 takes forever to arrive and also reach there! So yeap, i was late.

#2: Not only was i late, i missed my stop! So after confirming that with a stranger beside me, i alighted and started running back.. As i was crossing the road, i suddenly heard this loud horn! I was nearly knocked down by a cab.. I guess i made the cabbie super pissed because he opened the door and started yelling at me.. i waved at him and continued running.. heh.

#3: When i got there, i was told that the said co. is gonna debut their new product very soon and they actually hired dancers to perform during the debut itself. So i was there for the rehearsal, bcos they are using them bubble machines and props for the dance. As i arrived, the biggest shock was thrown into my face. The leader, head or whatever you call them, announced to the rest of the dance team;
"Ok guys, the bubble master is here, lets gather around so that he can teach us some tricks!"
At that point of time, if i could scream 'WHAT THE FUCK?!', i would... I definitely would.. But nope, the show has to go on,. I started babbling nonsense. Nonsense with alittle substance tho.. One of the guys had to ask me this;
"Can you teach us how to do the Bubble-in-a-bubble trick?"
Seriously, if balls could fly, mine would have flown to Thailand or some unknown island in Asia.
And sooo, i picked up the props and tried doing it. And to my astonishment, I DID IT! I DID IT! HAHAHA! It wasnt the perfect one, but it was still a Bubble-in-a-bubble!! :DDD

#4: It was held outdoors under the morning sun and my throat was getting very dry. In other words, i was freakin' thirsty! I didnt have cash with me and the nearest ATM was a lightyear away. So what i did would have made Bear Grylls proud! I drank from the tap in the toilet! I survived my first drought. But the surprise came when i left the toilet. The staff there asked if i would like to have a drink as they have this buffet corner where they provide cold drinks.. free.

#5: As they told me that they're done and tt i could pack up, i thought to myself that nothing can make this exprience any worse. But no! As i was clearing up the bubble solution, i cleared away the solution in these 2 bubble machines. My guts did tell me that it was rather unnecessary, but i chose to go ahead. Little did i know that the two machines were already bought by the co. and that it belongs to them.. so was the solution i threw away. >.<
Oh god,. i could so scream my lungs off right there and then. I apologized a million times and called my in-charge about the problem and told him im willing to pay for the solution.

had more bad moments in the later part of the night but nothing compared to all these. I've never felt so sorry for myself ever. but coming back home and have Massha to talk to washed all the crap away in an instance.

And if you realised, im abit exaggerative nowadays, thanks to my darling. Hahaha! She taught me how to! :DDD

Well, this concludes the bad day i had today! Never will i want another such experience ever again.

Home

2009-03-31T23:39:00.002+08:00

At times, i can be so hopelessly in love.

At times i hate myself for not being able to say the right words at the right time.

At times i cant help to dream.

I realised im an ugly player in this game of love.

But i dunno how to make it right sometimes.

It gets so dark sometimes that it feels cold.

The answers are in me but i cant seem to find them.

Why?

Help wasnt an option once,

but now its all i must ever depend on.

I am myself, but i cant feel me.

This emptiness that can only be filled in by you,

and this abscence is deafening.

Tho my dreams may not be ideal to you,

know that the man in the dreams would always come back home,

Home to the woman he loves.

The woman he loves.

you.

The Trio

2009-03-30T04:35:00.005+08:00

I think its time.

Its time my friends are featured here in this rusty little blog o'mine. The ones who know me inside out. The ones who stood by me no matter what. And the ones who can tolerate my nonsense anytime and anywhere.

We have our little differences.. but hell! we rock!

Haha! here goes..

#1: Chen Weirong - This guy here, my smoking kaki. HAHA! Together, we found ourselves an EMO-SPOT in Yew Tee where all we do is just lay back, relax and reminisce on the good old days. He's also my kopi kaki. Calling me in the wee hours asking to meet up for a kopi session. His smoking skills are exceptional! Always "educating" the rest on how to make the perfect 'O'. Also a very kind hearted guy whose willing to help anyone in trouble, but can be very shy with girls.. heh..

#2: Lim Wei Qiang, Nigel - This half Thai kid is one silent joker. Always trying to converse in Hokkien but to utter failure. A very sporty guy who'd do anything crazy with me. The one guy i'd have to call before going out with him cos i gotta check if he's wearing the same thing as me. We did buy the same clothes and shoes bro, but sorry, im still more handsome. :X

He's one hell of a good drinker, always a couple of cups ahead of me, and a great dancer. The guy who will stand by you even if you decide you jump into a river of shit. You're one crazy brother man!

#3: Chong Fuming - The epitome of nonsense. This guy has never failed to make me laugh. I think the first one to actually make me laugh at myself extensively. He's not just random but his jokes are just out of the world! and best still he's able to pull a straight face. Someone who'd help you out if it doesnt involve running or doing anything physical. Haha! Very unpredictable fella but his presence is felt whenever he's around.

Think i better stop here and elaborate no further about them for they might just pakat and do shit to me. Hahahaha! Its nice to have these people i call friends around me. Love you guys man.

Cheeeerrrssss! :DDD

The next time i blog, it'll be on the other guys! Till then...

Rag & Bone me

2009-03-29T19:10:00.002+08:00

Something worth mentioning eventhough it happened a couple of weeks back.

Salutes to Scouter Chameleon during Jobweek!
Reason being, he actually brought his collection of Scout items from Scarfs, woggles to collectable badges and gave it all away to the Scouts who worked harder than the rest and got the top spots. What moved me was how these items could carry a significant sentimental value to himself but he chose to share it.

This caught my attention because, me, i share something in common with a rag and bone man. Which is collect and keep whatever things i think could be of use in the future or it could jolly well be something that would bring back good old memories.

But not to the extend of keeping a broke fan or stacks of old newspaper which could cover an extensive amount of space in this humble hdb flat of mine..

Maybe this is something i could learn so as to make my space a little more neater and "treasure-free" heh..

To let go of somethings in life and to move on. To let the memories linger only in the mind.

Then maybe life would be more fulfilling that way.

Just maybe. (:

Singaporeans

2009-03-27T19:30:00.003+08:00

If you have not realised it yet, let me enlighten you.

Singaporeans. One trait i would love to change about us Singaporeans is the way we communicate to one another.

Most of us look at the Whites as a more superior being. Picking up their accents even if you spent a measly couple of years in their country.

But no matter how hard you try to be like them, you'll never succeed.
Ok, maybe you can try talking like them, or changing the colour of your hair, change your nationality. Or even get laid with a white.. but no!
Never will a Singaporean truly be like them.

And this is where it disturbs me the most. We are always so so concerned about our status. Always afraid that some other asian like yourself is much more superior than you. Or someone lower than you is getting paid more.. Because our country's assest is the people itself, competition is inevitable.

Ok ok.. so this is what happened.

Back in Secondary school, i had an Australian teacher who once mentioned this as well. She said that back in her country, whenever long lost friends or even strangers meet, they would, ask each other on stuff like,

> How are you? (Basic manners some Sporeans apparently dont aquire)
> What's your favourite past time? (I'd die to hear this from a stranger nowadays)
> Where are your common hang-out places? (Last i heared this was decades ago)

Maybe this explains why Singaporeans are so uptight and afraid to venture out even in the wilderness of Orchard Road itself.. Bcos instead of asking such questions to one another here, this is what majority of Sporeans do;

> So which institution are you in now?
> What are your plans for the future?
> Whats your salary like now?

See. No wonder Singaporeans are like that. And im sure 99.9% of people reading this are the same stereotype Singaporean im talking about.

Why im bitching about this is bcos i had a conversation with an aquaintance i havent met for 3 years? yea..

This is how it went;

Me: Helloo.. how'd you been?
Alien: Im ok. you studying now?
Me: (bored) yea... i am.. so what have you been doing lately?
Alien: im still schooling.. you lei? which school?
Me: (Super Bored & now annoyed) oh.. poly. yea..
(pause)
Me: Why issit that we Sporeans have to be so worried about status huh? (being sarcastic)
Alien: hahas.. so which poly? <---- ( wtf? )

I was pissed alright.. i quickly answered the questions and logged off right after..

So yes people... lesson learnt.. i need not elaborate further do i?

Please think for a second or two before opening that hole in your face.. esp when you're talking to someone like me.. For it might just be the last conversation you have with him... or her..

Cheers!

True Love

2009-03-27T19:24:00.002+08:00

One may find that love is blind,

But i choose to think that true love is just hard to find.

Linger and sway in this world of colours,

Just hoping to find the ones that glitters.

Glitter of beauty and purity and hope.

Is what i find in you. My love. My world.

So take my heart its yours to keep.

I'll love you till the day we finally fall asleep.

Never to awake and see the world once more,

But happy you will for you've once loved.

Because love itself is eternity.

Never to be moved by time or reality.

My 21st

2009-03-18T17:26:00.005+08:00

My 21st. Definitely a memorable one. Appreciate those who sent their wishes.

Anyhow, i spent the day with Massha as i promised her that i wouldnt sleep in or emo on my birthday. Haha.. When we met at cck, she gave me an empty paper bag and told me to put my wallet and handphone inside and tt it would also come in handy later..

Cheeky.

So she brought me to Starbucks as we wait for high tea @ Carousel which starts at 3:30pm.

As i was busy talking nonsense and playing with my drink, she took out a present from her handbag! Haha!

It really touched me with the present as she made a scrapbook about us. From our first date to all the "culinary adventures" we had together as a couple. It got me reminiscing those times once more.. and im glad to have her as my partner.

BUT the surprise isnt over yet!

As we got to Carousel and stuffed our faces with the food there, she suddenly took out yet ANOTHER present from her bag! This time, i was really really in shocked.. She was like Doraemon! Stuffing things into her bag! This time, it was a watch. An Emporio Armani watch.

The already-shocked-me got another dose of surprise.. hahaha.. i was really lost for words.. so the only thing i kept repeating was, Thank you. :D

Last but not least, she took out a birthday card and told me to open it only at home. At that moment, i knew that i was the happiest person on earth and i really felt appreciated and loved.

Thank you my dear. You really know your way arnd my heart. I love you. (:

Here are some of the other pressies i got this time round!

From brother.

From Aunt.

From Mum & Aunt.

From mummy. (:

My deepest gratitude to all those who had made my 21st a memorable one.

Cheers!

NPC 2008

2008-12-02T17:22:00.003+08:00

NPC 2008

Apart from having the 3 units achiving all Silver, i personally learnt alot from the camp. Not because the camp was enriching or anything like that, but i managed to get myself to overcome challenges on my own..

As it was my very first camp away from the usual faces, i only had Junkai and Teckseng to accompany me throughout most of the camp.. And i sincerely appreciate their company. There were times when i felt lonely, but instead of dreading it, i embraced it. I took the opportunity to think of my actions and observe how things work.

I realised that during the camp, i managed to self talk. Everyone talks to themselves every now and then. But i seem to be able to lay the problem out, think of solutions and pick the best.
I used to support Greenridge only as i felt like i owe my allegiance to them, but soon learnt that my allegiance, my loyalty lies in The Fox Scout Group. And my love for Greenridge is now shared amongst the other units.

How i came to realise this was when i was walking around the campsites. Looking at the Scouts doing what they were trained to do, trying their best to obtain whatever results they could achieve. Only then did i realise that they're oblivious to all the politics we Rovers and Leaders are playing. They're boys. They're just, boys. And i soon came to fall in love with every single one of them, no matter what the crest or logo were on their shirts.

They're just Scouts. And we're there to impart our knowledge to them. And that's exactly what i'll keep doing.

They call me Rover Shidiq. Not Rover Greenridge. We sew the Fox Emblem on our chests. Not the school logo.. And maybe just once.. just this once, should we learn from them instead. To be blind to all these politics. To accept people for their differences. And to unite as one Fox Scout Group.

As the last day of the camp came, and as my mind was clear from the differences, i grabbed the opportunity to mingle with all the 3 units. Taught them afew ways to bundle the spars, helped them to pack abit and most importantly, i told them that i was there if they needed me..

It took just 5 days to make me realise all this. A lesson learnt.

And i hope all of us could take a moment each and think of the importance of being united and also the endless wonders we could achieve by doing so.

To that, i salute the NPC Teams who not only had made us all proud.

But for letting me learn something one can never educate.

Cheers!

A short post

2008-11-20T13:41:00.003+08:00

So here i am, 2 more working days and its time for me to ORD.

Mixed feelings i have but i do know i have to move on,

and achieve my goals in life.

From here on, there's no pitstops to my education journey. Its all the way now.

So much can happen in the span of 2 years. The 2 years i will never forget ever.

The friends i made, the people i met, the lessons learnt.

So much memories.. Memories i will hold on to dearly.

National Service has definitely made me a different person altogether.

And im glad i served NS before i start to pursue my education,

as i have a clearer perspective of things and im able to prioritize better.

Hope the skills i acquired from National Service will serve me well in the future.

2008-10-26T02:26:00.002+08:00

Havent been updating because i was just too busy with life.

And I love this picture we took together. Cant deny we have quite abit of resemblance? heh..

Anyhow, she's the one who has been taking care of me..

From sending chocolates, cookies and hot chocolate to my workplace, to ordering Macdonals for me when im starving at home..

And not to mention the occasional scolding i get from her whenever i skip meals and also how she deprives me of her kisses whenever i misbehave... hahaha!

Seriously, what more can i ask for? For once, I feel so appreciated.. And im totally in love.. (((:

Went to Tioman a couple of weeks back,.. apart from missing baby so badly, I had an awesome time with the Guys.. Will try to upload a few pictures later.. From renting a power boat to bring us snorkelling in the deep seas and corals.. to canoeing to some deserted beach... with white sands and clear waters.. Fish swimming around you and nibbling your skin every now and then.. Experiences as such can only be experienced in Tioman. Uniquely Tioman indeed. haha..

Will seriously try to upload them pictures soon. Esp the ones taken by the underwater cam. ((: Planning to hit Bangkok this December!! Plannings are still in progress... :D

2008-09-20T18:47:00.005+08:00

It was one month of gruesome waiting. But its all good. ((:

Applied leave on Friday because darling's having her 1 week hols, so we decided to meet up for dinner.

We went to Botanic Gardens for a stroll before that and i have to say the place has gone through some major face lift.

Its really a nice experience, having someone i love and care about to be by my side and making sure every thing's gonna be alright.

Oh well.. enough said, life has really taken a turn to become so much better ever since we met and i shall cherish every moment we spend tog for we'll never know whens the last.

2008-09-15T12:37:00.003+08:00

Enough with the planning!
Enough with the preparation!
Enough with the datelines!

Scouting has become a burden.
I stayed on for the fun activites and also the friendship i made there.

But now, not only do i seldom meet the friends i have in scouts,
I cant seem to be having fun like before.

I find no joy in Scouting anymore.

Was contemplating whether i should leave the unit for good.
Maybe this is the part where one has to make a decision of a lifetime,

To leave, or to wait for someone or smthn to reignite the flame tt has long been extinguished.

I do miss those times i had with my fellow PLC.
Just to name a few;
Mingjie
Kenneth
Jingcai
Jeffrey
etc
The bond we had got us through any form of hardships.
We were indestructable. We were fearless.

From grinning to one another while doing pushups
to
marching around the school bcos we were proud of ourselves.

and not to mention the occasional losing-of-handphone by our brother Kenneth.. only to find out tt he had it amongst his clothes all along.
Cartoon Network tt one. ((:

Jingcai, who could jump from off pioneering structures without getting hurt,

Mingjie who untied the wrong lashing, which nearly got killed by his own structure..

HAHAHAHA!

Oh, what i'll do to have us all together once more.
I do realise that we have different priorities in lives and tt we dont share the same interest anymore.
But those memories of us together as brothers will be kept close to me forever.

Life's full of uncertainties..

So embrace every moment, for it might be last.

To all those people i once knew as brothers,

I pray that you're in good health and doing great,

Till the next time we meet.

CHEERS~!! (:

2008-09-07T18:29:00.003+08:00

It was just months, but it felt like years.

I was hesitant then, but i just couldnt contain my feelings.

And resulted to, Confessions.

Relieved i was, tt it was mutual.

Initiative wasnt much on my part, but she did compromise a principle or two just to have us where we are right now,

And im not complaining but grateful.

The believes and principles we had were diverse,

but along the way, we not only got ourselves aufait with each others' habits but even picked up afew.

An unlikely union, yes.

But nontheless, efforts will be put in so as to have eternity real.

Love is complicated.

But always rewarding.

To that, i will cherish it and make us fall in love over and over again,

Like there's no tomorrow.

There's indeed a silver lining to every dreadful sitiuation.

Just expect the unexpected. (:

Sincerity

2008-09-01T10:51:00.005+08:00

To resuscitate this heart of mine,
To feel warmth once again,
To recognize once more the feeling of being safe and cared for.

Long have i awaited this moment,
The moment where i could feel the warm blood rushing through the arteries winding through this once cold heart of mine.

And to know that i still do have a heart.
Long has it been dead.. and never found the will or reason to revive it.
But all changed. And im letting it see the world again.

Its too fragile and brittle after all the years of toying. But i gotta take a chance.
For this might be it.
Blame myself for being naive. Surrendering it to anyone i thought would care.
But they left. They all left.

Leaving me, cold and helpless.

Oh god. Let this be the last time i surrender it, for good.
And not having to take it back, broken, wounded.

There's indeed a silver lining to every storm. & Fate could have played a part in this.
Oh god, all i ask for is sincerity.

One more heartbreak, and it'll wither...
So sincerity is all i ask for.

Im blessed.

And im ever so grateful.

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Sometimes I dream
I'm lost in time,
where heroes go
and no one speaks
in broken words,
and lovers aren't afraid to know
each breath that calls,
each star that falls,
an angel
dies to be alive.
Am I dreaming
or am I in love?

and the stars were shining
and the earth smelled sweet
the garden gate creaked
her footsteps barely touched the path
She came in, so fragrant
and fell into my arms...

Sometimes I dream
a dream so real
I am deceived.
The curtains part.
The stars reveal
a story that I must believe.
They turn a page,
they see a stage
and wonder
who they gaze upon.
Am I dreaming,
or dying for love

what sweet kisses, slow and gentle caresses
while trembling, I released
the lovely face from its veil!
My dream of love is gone forever
The hour has flown
and I die in despair
Yet I've never been
so much in love with life!

Sometimes I dream
Sometimes I dream
Sometimes I dream

- Mario Frangoulis (Sometimes i dream)

2008-08-28T00:30:00.003+08:00

A brief change of melody to this antique blog of mine. ((:

Chanced upon the song earlier today and i thought it was a work of heavens.

So, relax, breathe slow and absorb it. For it might just make your day.

To just stop and listen to music like this makes me open up my mind, allowing me to see the good things in life.

Past, Present and future.

It could even make a pessimist see the glass half full.

From letting a foetus listen to brain music to having music as a form of inspiration.

The benefits of music are endless..

If you think the world is turning its back on you,

Music might be your zen.

So just relax and enjoy your music.

For life isnt that bad afterall! ;)

2008-08-25T19:12:00.001+08:00

Did you understand the way I felt?
Days that really went by just thinking of you
But as my mind for you became larger
It could only get even harder for me

I could only tremble in anxiety, now im sick of myself
I don’t have the confidence to see you
Yeah, I cowardly show my back to you
And I hate myself so much tryin to run away

But I found it out too late when I found out I like you
By then it was far too late, everything had changed
Bein far too shabby,
I lost all my courage and confidence to talk to you

But thinkin’ it was good enough like that, I was naïve
I really didn’t know it would be that hard
But now, late as it is, ive realized it

Will this all reach you as an excuse?
But you were my one and only love
Just understand that one thing for me
There’s nobody who will love you as I do

Looking at you turned around
I have no more sadness, oh baby.
I cant let go of a lost love
I cant cry in sadness
Baby, Im beggin you

My soaked friend’s lowering voice in my heart
A love story gone wrong and ended from the start
The sadness of not being able
To understand my friends pain
Its too hard to relieve, so I try singin’ a song

For her, who was like a flower petal you really loved
The love you spent so much time by yourself preparing
The tears that flowed down
To make that one flower bloom
It couldn’t hope for light
Turning into a fistful of dirt it blows away

The conclusion that difficulty comes in the final thoughts
There’s no way it’ll come easy, but for her, for you,
Through the conclusion of your love’s farewell

Someday.. your two’s unaccomplished regrettable love
Meet as two lights in the sky
Become a falling start drawing a line in the sky
I hope you definitely accomplish that love
In the next life

My friend still loves her
But for her sake he is parting from her
To think this is love it stops my breath
That’s why now, it looks like my friend’s still crying

Looking at you turned around
I have no more sadness, Baby baby
I cant let go of a lost love
I cant cry in sadness
Baby, Im beggin’ you

- MC SNIPER (BK LOVE)

2008-08-20T21:55:00.002+08:00

So life's been great.

Too great when i come to think about it.

But apart from all these greatness, i've been suffering from sleep disorder.
Sleeping late is not the problem, but to wake up a couple of hours later and having to stare at the ceiling for another hour is not very nice.. :/

But then again, im still ever so grateful to have my life feeling so complete, once more.

Hope shant be too unrealistic. For it might kill instead of heal,

As history may repeat itself.

But holding on to dreams still, will make me a better person.

Or at least tts what i think?

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Companionship - something that i tend to sought after every now and then.

As it gives me a sense of warmth/security to have someone to;

listen to your troubles,
share your dreams,
exchange beliefs,
lend a shoulder,
be with in present & future,
etc.

Love has its price. Everything does.

The willingness to submit to its demands is something not many can forgo of.

But if you manage to conjure the strength to do so, the fruits thereafter are much sweeter than one can ever imagine.

Its a two way street that often, many get lost and end up either stagnant or hiking the street they first came.

Or worst. Astray.

Its a decision that haunts me, still.

And only me.

Me alone have the answers to this peculiar question of mine.

And time is always of the essence.

And so i've gotta think. Hard.

For it might be the decision of the lifetime.

My lifetime. My love. (:

2008-08-07T13:58:00.002+08:00

Random thoughts.

Are people you call friends trustworthy enough to share your problems?

Will they understand you inside out, eventho you're known them for years?

They are nothing more than creatures.. creatures who judge you.
rate you.
assess you.
grade you.

Hypocrites we all are. nthn more.

I can be a problem solver.. but can nv solve mine. Let alone to have someone to confide in. No one i can trust, truly.

For every confession you make, it just makes you weaker.. for you couldnt hold them inside and keep it there, but to share with the hypocrites out there who will in turn use tt confession against you.

In humans we cannot trust. Only in god and ourselves...

Having to talk to yourself every now and then.. just for the sake of lashing things out and to feel comfort... Can be very disturbing at times.. Thoughts confuse me. Thoughts kill me.

When will i ever have a peace of mind? I just want to be left alone.

Away from people. Away from civilisation. Just for a moment of silence... To hear the leaves rustle in the wind.. the birds chirping in the sky and water crashing into the sand & rocks.

I want to be left alone. Let me be alone.

To power of thought can be powerful, yes.

But its able to take one's life away.. The sense of security i once acknowledged is not there anymore.

Im left all alone.. and i like it tt way.. so leave me alone.

Just let me be.

Traumatised

2008-08-07T10:14:00.002+08:00

TRAUMATISED

This is the closest word to describe how i felt ytd evening.

Why?

Because i was being stalked by a he/she. :/

I'm not gonna post about the incident in detail for it might be offending to those who chose to live tt way.

But just don't disturb me pleassee? Its very disturbing! Its an outrage of my modesty, ok!? tsk!

Anws.. Massha, as always, did a great job of cheering me up by cracking all sorts of nonsense jokes.. ahah!((:

The sweetest ever. Thanks arr..(:

2008-07-26T15:33:00.002+08:00

OKAY! I shall post smthn very interesting!
The other time, i met up with a brother of mine for dinner and stuff... as usual, conversations were crazy.. but the craziest was when he started to talk about Polytechnics and their Potential in having Chiobus & Yandaos..

Friend: Eh.. actually arr.. TP alot of Chiobu...
Me: Ya.. maybe?
Friend: Ya man.. and SP has alot of handsome guys...

--Silence--

Me: BWAHAHAHAHAHS!! WTF?!! you're praising yourself u asshole!
Friend: NONONO!! tts not wat i meant!!
Me: Yea rite!! Its just like saying.. Chinese alot of chiobu.. but malay alot of handsome guys.. Isnt it hinting tt im good looking myself?!?! AHAH!! u jackass!
Friend: HAHA! no la.. serious.. tts not wat i meant..
Me: HAHA... Yea riteee!! im so gonna blog about this!!
Friend: WTF? ehh.. pls dun... pls..

So yeap! here i am.. blogging about it.. this brother of mine is frm SP.. he bought the same shoes as i did.. and we so happened to wear the same Shirt tt time.. only colour was the diff.. hahah..
If you cant guess it... well.. tts just too bad!

HAHA!!!

2008-06-16T20:20:00.009+08:00

Went bowling last weekend with Nigel & Junkai... it was quite an interesting night.. it was just the 3 of us bcos others were busy n stuff... So we played a couple of games @ BK Civil Service Club.. it was my first time there.. and i think the place is great... a very different and peaceful ambiance tho it's located in the midst of all tt hustle & bustle of city life..

Nigel lost the first round... but emerged champion in overall.. jackass.. haha.. I really enjoyed your company guys.. tks man!

Oh well.. here are the pics.. Nigel: 68 - JunKai: 73 - Me: 73

Total~ Nigel: 175 - JunKai: 135 - Me: 155

Me hoping so so hard to get a strike.. ahah!

PICTURE OF THE DAY~!!

Am looking forward to play futsal next sunday with the Rovers n gang..

wooooohoooo!!

2008-05-26T20:27:00.004+08:00

The occasional "Hey.. you're getting fatter" are always coming my way... damn shit... nearly everyone i know says that...

Im on it alrite... think i gotta get myself Tummy Trim or some shit to stop myself from being one fat bastard...

So yea.. SRRR has ended.. eventho we lost, i feel no regrets at all... i really had a good time with my two brothers and we learnt quite alot in raft building.. At least we didnt quit.. Row to the end! =D

So i guess we're gonna be back next year.. Back with vengence.. and some physics while we're at it.. Haha!

Life's been very very hectic this past few months... Eversince i got transferred... I got so much work to do... Much more responsibilities n stuff... I really gotta take a step back in my scouting activities and set my priorities to Ns..

Been thinking alot about going back to school after NS... I'm already Vying this course at this particular poly.. Hmmm.. its so gonna be weird... Enterin poly at the age of 21.. while alot of them are just 17? 18? Old bird...

I so wanna take my Bike license right now but i've gotta pay it myself... which equates to a CMI... Guess i rather spend the $ on something else... Shoes perhaps? :D

Crap! I still havent confirm the Phuket Trip for this coming December! Planning to disappear for awhile right after i ORD... i wanna be uncontactable... for at least a month or two.. I deserve a retreat... a long one..

Guys going to Phuket... pls make up ur mind bcos im going... with or without you!

Talked to Wilbur & Guoyao last weekend.. was asking whether they're interested to drive up to KL again anytime this year or early nxt year... Well.. they seem to be interested enough.. would love to rent 2 cars and drive up to KL... since we have like 4 drivers already.. and a few more to come.. am looking forward to this!

Wa... Xh just pm-ed me.. well.. he says he's disappointed with me because im not able to come for PLTC.. and why i cant come? CLubbin? Chalet? nope.. Work.. NS.. yeap..

Sometimes its so difficult to explain to ppl how much responsibilities i have at work... and its not like shared among afew ppl.. NO! its like my own taiji.. i like have my own computer.. my own email address.. my own cubicle.. my own work... If i dont do it.. no one will.. seriously NO ONE...

Why is it so difficult to explain to others? because most of them are from the Army.. they have no idea wat we Ns police officers do.. your load is shared,.. mind isnt... im office hour staff? i dun think so... i do nite shifts... i come back on weekends... i end at 8pm nearly everyday... office hours? think again... like the other time i had to build the raft for SRRR... i was actually awake for more than 36 hours... sacrificed sleep... bcos i was keen to participate i still came down after my night shift n all...

Nowadays.. i cant enjoy myself like before.. just let loose n all.. work keeps popping into my mind... wat to do.. when... how.. urgghh.. ORD... pls! pls!

I've been trasferred bcos the previous guy couldnt commit and make time for work... they then switched me with him.. knowing i'll be different.. and so i gotta prove to them i'm worthy..

I already feel guilty for wanting to take leave for Group Camp.. tts why i try not to push my luck with PLTC..

Oh well.. no one will truly understand me anw..

I wanna share with you guys some pics tt might be quite funny...

This guy in the picture thinks that people should make a ''Pussy/BJ Machine''... so those lao ahpeks can enjoy themselves anytime anywhere... check it out!

The only question is...

WILL YOU STILL PUT YOUR HANDS IN THERE?
=P

Speech Day @ Beacon Pri

2008-04-19T06:09:00.003+08:00

Went back to Gss for Speech Day ytd.. Damn man, things have definitely changed... Im not referrin to outlook of the place (bcos it was held at Beacon Pri) but to the new system the principal and the staff had implemented. The Art scenes esp was really magnificent...

Oh how i wish all these were real back during my sec sch days.. I could have been a superstar! HAHA!
Another thing i realised... Im really old la... there's like so many ppl i used to see as xiao di/ xiao mei now all grown up n stuff.. oh man.. felt so old can..
I guess with Mdm Heng's leadership and new school system n all, GSS can finally be a Quality School after all... :)

There were so many people who commented that i was plump/fat/built etc....
Do i really look that fat now? :/
N.O. ok!! orrrr... maybe it comes with age? ergh.. either way,
I've gotta hit the gym more often i think... hmm...

Btw, i was browsin thro some random songs on the internet and i just so happened to stumble upon those old malay songs i used to listen to back in lower sec...
I then realised that I've really lost touch in my malay culture and its kinda sad man...
Those songs really reminded me of those jiwang days... Hahaa.. damn!
So what happened to the JMK Dickie people used to know of? lol...

Alrite man, this particular song on me blog, it reminds me of this girl back in kindergarten days where i had my first so called "crush" on this gorgeous gal who was a mix of malay & arab..
WELL....., What can i say? I've always had great taste for my woman eh.. hehee..

How i wish i could meet you again darl! Maybe you're now some FHM or VS model or smthn.. hehe..
Only god noes.. =P

2008-04-14T14:36:00.003+08:00

Boring you may call it. Uneventful maybe... but im ever so grateful to have a quiet and peaceful life for the past few years.
After getting to know the happenings in your life lately, i feel kinda bad having to know these fuckshits are happening to you.. im sorry. I really am. Me on the other hand.. im still in the world where only my ORD matters.. nothing else.

The only words of advice i can offer is, don't trust guys too much.. get to know them well.. and not like them for their status or even looks..
Well, i will always pray the best fer you and your future... and hope that you will settle down with a man worthy enough to hold your hands.. and not some boy who just wants to have fun.

I might not be the ideal friend you can look onto.. I will never show much compassion and care..but believe me, you'll stay in my heart forever as someone who had made a great impact in my life. More than a friend, definitely.

You've been given the opportunity to start anew.. and i hope you'll find a better life... away from all the sadness and grief, for they will be nthn more than memories etched within you.

I've got little more to say.. and i hope you know this post is meant for you and you only.
I wish you all the best in life.. and until fate lets us meet once more.

Till then my friend.

2008-04-11T11:13:00.005+08:00

Many of you have already known that I've been transferred to a higher department in me workplace..
I was grateful for the change as i felt that having me exposed to a different job scope before i leave will have me gain much experience.
Lots of planning.. lots of work and of cos lots of sacrifices.

One of the sacrifices i dread is having to miss Scouting activities.. So guys, expect me to be kinda MIA for at least until the eoy yea..
Apologies in advance.

Anw, it feels kinda cool having public to see you in action. As in "work". Some might even be taking pictures or vid of you.
I guess i noe how it feels like to be a celeb (omit the screaming of fans tho) haa..

Talking about celeb..., there's this new programme comin soon on Tv involving local celebrities having a showdown or some shit.. Well, i think the way they're advertising the show is a total failure.
Seriously.
Just look at that Twohill.. My god.. His face!?
No comments... just see it for urself.. uurghh.. disgusto!

Oh yea! that Suhaimi is also another fella.. im just so sick and tired of having to see his face on tv..
Ok, personally i dun hate him.. but its just tt he keeps exaggerating his expressions.. which he thinks is funny i guess.. Cmon! Snap out of it...
People want and need quality comedians nowadays... Think Jim Carrey!

Okok, so they're all not tt bad afterall... people like Mark Lee and Gurmit Singh are among the quality comedians Singapore have and they deserve some kind of recognition award or some shit.. btw, No successors? hmm...

Alritey! I gtg haf me some sleep man.

Till then!

2008-03-29T00:02:00.006+08:00

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

YOU LOST!!

2008-03-17T09:18:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO ME!!

Yeap! Im officially 20 now.. I know, Old.
My mum is the greatest.. Love her to bits..
She not only brought me to makan at Vivo, she also bought me a pair of Zara shoes and also the Motorola Q! Weee...

Rani and Weirong got me a cake and a limited edition Hugo Boss perfume.. Thanks guys. you're the greatest.

Oh ya! Thanks to those who wished me so very early ytd and earlier this morning ya! Appreciate it..

So the age comes with much more responsibilities and obviously more sense.. I have got to stop acting like idiot now and start being a man, and a man i will be!

Till then.. :)

2008-03-06T13:06:00.004+08:00

Much conspiracy theories, speculations and rumours spreading like wild fire not just around the island, but also from the neighbouring countries.
It has been quite awhile since Mas Selamat bin Kastari escaped from ISD and the hunt just keeps getting tougher and security getting tighter.

What caught my attention was that most of us, Singaporeans do not see this as a tragedy, but just another unfortunate event that will subside one way or another.
I see people making jokes about the guy, vandalising the posters, and one bugger even called the Police and pretended to be MSK.
Don't they see the seriousness in this issue?

Worse are those who take this as an opportunity to question and critise the actions of the Government. Some even commented that the Police advertisement chasing after the criminal should be changed as the criminal should be limping instead. And some even commented that the Gurkhas were incompetent for letting a guy with such a low physique escape.
I mean, Cmon! do you even know that ISD isnt the Police at all?
And do you know how skillful and loyal Gurkhas are? More than some Singaporeans for sure.
Get your facts right before you comment, for that mouth of yours might just bite you back in the ass.

So instead of contributing and helping, these group of people just find the whole event a funny one. Until something really bad happen to them or their family, will they then realise its not a laughing matter and start regretting.

Ok, so these guys are jerks. Yes, but proud i was to see many Singaporeans stepping in to offer watever help they can give.
Stuff like getting the posters from Police Stations for disseminating, people lending their trained dogs for the hunt, keeping a look out for him etc.
This is the kind of spirit Singaporeans should have when crisis occurs and not just contribute to the already much crap the country is facing.

We musnt let this crisis take a toll on our confidence, but instead use it as a chance to prove to the world that we're a little red dot to be reckon with.

May all of us work hand in hand to apprehend MSK and let this be a lesson learned.

Cheers.

2008-03-03T23:21:00.003+08:00

Eversince i got me license, im rarely home... esp bcos i rented a car.. hahaa..

My very first car i drove around (Excludin BBDC car).

I was expecting a rundown car kinda thing... but what did i get?

Some zhng(modified) ah beng's car.. the car can seriously run man.. and the speakers.. wooooo..

Anw, had a great time rollin arnd not just with me family but also with friends and all...

Hope you guys enjoyed your ride with me for there will be more ahead...

Oh ya.. i got my first paking fine too! haha.. well, its just $20... ^^

Passed my TP

2008-02-27T16:26:00.002+08:00

Let's keep it short & sweet ya.

So today was kind of a very good day,.. Why?

1) Fuming passed his exams! (ClapsClaps!)

2) Rad has graduated from Singapore Poly! (ClapsClapsClaps!)

3) I can sleep very peacefully tonite. Why?

Because, I PASSED MY TP!!!

WOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO!!
(Round of applause pls?)

Hahaa!! i really thought i would fail esp because for my warm up.. everything went wrong.. Nv signal, nv change gear, nv check blindspots.. and so on..
But yea.. i made it.. and got 18 points.. haha!! Pheww...

Pack ur bags peeps.. Kuala Lumpur... here we come!!

2008-02-20T17:12:00.002+08:00

Anyone interested to watch Disney On Ice with me?
I got 15 to 20% off tix? :/

Anw, Im already planning to watch Maroon 5 with Rad and some other ppl.. all are welcome to join us yea.. :)

2008-02-05T10:24:00.000+08:00

So i was sitting at the canteen alone, eating my mee siam quietly in a corner.. I then saw this girl walking towards me from far.. and she seemed to be smiling at me.. I looked behind me.. then around me.. No! there wasnt anyone else but me. Was she smiling at me? Was she?

Her face was rather familiar.. but from where i had no idea.. She then stood beside me and she asked whether i was shidiq.. I told her i was and she told me she was Mas.. She then sat opposite me and we started chatting.. It took me another 15 mins to recognize who she really was.. haha..

Little did i know.. she was my long lost friend from Unity Pri! Oh.. how close we were back then.. and how much we've grown throughout the years.. We then made our way to Bt Gombak tog and along the way... i started to recollect all the past memories and realised that we were really very close once.. Really miss her alot.. Wanted to give her one big barney hug but i know it would feel rather awkward..
It was funny at times when our topic of conversation ends and tt awkward silence sets in and we would just keep smiling to ourselves, thinking how coincidental it was(at least tts what i thot to myself).. Hahaha.. cute!

Anw, the strange thing was.. she told me she has always been bumping into me like for 4 to 5 times? and i didnt notice it was her.. maybe bcos she's a very fine lady now.. compared to those kiddy days we had back then.. and i couldnt regonized her no more..

She then told me about the times she saw me.. from Town, Mrt to BBDC a couple of times.. My god! i have got to be more observant nxt time rnd...
Niwae., really hope we'll get close once more and may this friendship last forever.. :)

Cheers.

2008-01-31T13:15:00.000+08:00

Was down with fever and watnots a week ago.. Spent my weekend recuperating. It was rest that i needed badly. A holiday is something i ought to be looking forward to.

Work has been very challenging lately. Freakin tiring.

Am going mos tonight bcuz Rad got hold of a few tix.. Im gonna let loose and just enjoy every free time i haf nw. Lately, sleeping has been so very easy bcuz i always end up worn out everytime i reach home.

Am planning to chillout at east coast this coming cny eve with the guys.. i so need this right now.

As for my drivin lessons, im left with 3 more to end it all and my tp date is gettin nearer!
Hope all goes well..

Well, thats all for now.

2008-01-16T17:40:00.000+08:00

Believe it or not. I feel so lonely without Kenneth Kiti..
It all struck me when my Police friends asked me along to MOS.
The immediate thing i did was to think of the other friends i have so as to ask them along..
And to my disappointment, i had none in mind but Kenneth, my clubbin' kaki..

Where have all my friends gone to?
Well, apart from the fact that most of them are either attached, broke or working,
The rest of them in my Super Looonnngg contact list in my mobile are those i dun consider friends anymore..

Am I that unfriendly? Is it the looks? Oh man.. why?
Anw,
Weirong then decided to accompany me to MOS and tog, we had quite an eventful nite..
Thanks man!

I spoke to Rad & Fir about this ytd nite.. and also shared with them that I'm becoming quite a straight forward person.. tho it kills my PR skills alil, i think i'll stick to how i am now..

Im so gonna do this!
I'll try to think of the people I've known.. and wat i think we've become over the years or wat is in this cloudly mind of mine.
Dun be too sensative pls and accpt what i really think.. :)

Police Friends:
Kinda difficult to contact them at times. esp because our working hours are always crashing into one another.. resorting to one of us taking leave/mc or sacrifice sleep so as just to meet up..

Scout Buddies:
You guys are great.. but i feel like i cant open myself completely to u guys because you will never accept me for the shits ive done in life.. But we will always be one scout family.
Im sure of this!

Nigel/Fuming/BQ:
So proud that you guys are moving on to another phase of life... Young Adults now.. From young lil bastards, to bigger bastards.. I trust u guys with my life man.. but that 1 year gap between us will always be there.. making me feel rather uncomfortable sharing my experiences in life to you guys.. Till hoes do us part.. :)

Ruthless:
Haha.. you guys were a funny bunch of people man.. Its great how u guys(Most) are still in contact and meet up frequently.. I had to leave man.. I realised how different i was from you guys.. not in terms of race(duh) but the culture we live in.. Let's just say we lead different lifestyles yea.. Do miss you guys at times..

ULU Gang:
Well, i left because i simply couldnt tolerate the att and also the great amount of time idling away.. Sorry guys, i gotta move on.. I have lots to accomplish and Ulu was just a passing rock on my road in life..
Do what you guys enjoy and make the best outta it.. No grudges boys.. Enjoy!
Do talk abit if we were to bump into one another yea.. :)

Hadri/Rad/Fir/Bob etc:
We're still in contact... no doubt bout it.. But i cant deny the fact that we're not as close as before.. I understand we all have our responsibitlities and little time is left to meet up..
Am looking forward to see you guys again soon... Forever bros..

THE REST:
Either im outta brain juice or you do belong to the grp...
You've been a great impact in my life or otherwise..
But the fact remains that you do not know me very tt well... esp bcos im a very secretive guy and hates sharing..
Anw, do keep in contact as you guys are afterall my friends..

OK.. enuff blabberin for today.. gtg meet Weirong for dinner...

Till then..

2008-01-06T00:16:00.000+08:00

Had Rovers meeting today... Catch up with the Ventures and Scouter Zhaoyi alil... Damn.. Miss being a venture.. but most importantlly, my bros n sis are still around to make my life meaningful.

Ate at BPP.. my god.. the jokes we shared.. buay tahan.. hahaha!

Liting & Nigel should have been there as well.. can suan more.. haha..

Anw.. here are some of the pics we took.. kinda gay tho..

ENJOY!

BYE!!

2007-12-31T00:54:00.000+08:00

Cant believe its gonna be 2008... and im turning 20 in like 3 months.. and im actually serving my National Service..

As a kid, NS to me was something only grown ups will go through.. so i guess i'm an adult now huh.. Leaving my teenage life behind.. all full of memories... both sweet and bitter ones.. but ive never had regrets.. eventho i've committed countless of mistakes over the years.. they're all lessons i will treasure greatly.. never regrets..

Will never forget those people ive aquainted with and now nthn more than a stranger to me... I guess thats the way life is huh..
Will treasure those close ones to me now and hope that our friendship will last to the end...

Well.. in 2008.. My resolution will be kept secret in me as a personal achivement.. but all in all, i need to learn to be more patient and friendlier..

Yea.. Till then...

Happy New Year. :)

2007-12-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

At last.. Grand Dinner is over and I've been on the Off mode eversince..
It was rather a successful one and im gald to have chaired it..

Anyway.. went out with Fiona ytd b4 meeting up with the guys.. haha.. she was bugging me for her coldrock.. so yea.. why not.. haha.. Here are some of the pics,

CHRISTMAS TREE @ TAKA

I LIKE THIS PIC ALOT... cute rite.. as in me.. haha!

ACTING CUTE AS ALWAYS... haha!I was either too shy or the Ice Cream gave me a brainfreeze! haha..

Thats all folks..

Till then...

2007-12-15T00:25:00.000+08:00

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN...

I PRESENT TO YOU.....

THE ELF OF THE YEAR....

FIONA LIM LIU JUN!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH!

2007-12-14T00:01:00.000+08:00

Well, i went to ZoukOut last Weekend... It was the greatest thing ever man... a total sincity.. Dun wanna talk bout it.. U didnt go means u missed it... too bad yea.. big loss my fren!
Check out me frenster fer some of the pics..

Anyway.. I just won a pair of invites to The Great Cannery Jubilee this Saturday! Hahah..
How? Simple! I wrote in to Class 95 Jean Danker's "Back to the O Skool" on Cartunes.. haha.. can't believe she actually read out my entry(eventho i missed it).. haha..

So yea.. the lucky person im bringing along is none other than...

KENNETH KITIKOMOLSUK!!!

LOL..
Can't wait man...
TIll then...

2007-12-06T10:27:00.001+08:00

OUR BANNER! by Teck Seng..

Crap! This week was hectic man.. Other than revising the Finance part for the event, all of us Committee members have been putting in tremendous amount of effort and even sacrificing our free time so as to make this upcoming event hopefully a successful one..

Am so touched with their determination.. having meetings till late night, running around to find the ideal vendors and items for the Dinner and also staying up till 3 to 4 am just touching up on the Ticket's & Banner design.. Tho our committee might be small, we seem to be able to handle things fine.. everybody is helping one another with their tasks and no one seems to be complaining (at least not yet! =P) totally a kampong spirit!

Love You People!

Our Designer & IT rep

Our Finance Ic

Our Zss Liason & External Designer

Our Fss Liason & Logistic

Ventures Liason & Runner

Let's make this dinner a blast of an event!!! :D

2007-12-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

Hellloooo Blog!! Damn.. its been awhile alright. Well, here are some of the the things i did recently... Wont talk too much about them tho..
Here goes..
Went to Harry's Bar last Fridae with Nigel & gang.. Had a blast of a time with them... Can't wait for the next outing..

Well... Ive been pretty occupied lately esp bcos of the upcoming dinner.. My god.. so much to do.. so little time.. Here are some of the pics i took when surverying the Guild Hall.

The Stage!

Dessert Table

Oh ya... for those who are going, they will be a lucky draw with a total of 9 attractive Prizes to be won!! haha.. check em out man!!

9th, 8th & 7th prize!

6th, 5th & 4th prize!

3rd & 2nd prize!

anddd........ the 1st Prize!!!

Till then...

2007-11-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

Why do friends come and go?

I recently read an article about this very fortunate man who was given the opportunity to travel the world. It was a dream come true to him and also to those who desire to do so..

As months past, he was already hopping from one country to another.. The experience was priceless of course but he felt rather sad because everytime he was beginning to be well aquainted with the people he meets, he had to leave for another.

This made him realize that even if the country has got lots of attractions to offer, it is the people and most importantly the Friends u find who make it all worth while and special.
He mentioned that every friend is a whole new world by himself, and if you were to meet them, new wonders and experiences will unfold...

So now, let's relate back to my Topic, 'Why Do friends Come & Go'.
It has become a norm in our everyday lives to see them come and leave..
Either you're the one leaving or them..
Its a very sad thing to see your friend whom you have known for years to leave because he/she thinks has found the special someone in their lives.. but the question is, is it worth the sacrifice?

Personally, I've seen so many people leave.. and i myself have left a couple of times.. and to me, it is these people who make who i am today.

With that, i definitely appreciate it..

Throughout the years, my circle of friends has shrunk to the point where i can actually count them with my two hands.. let alone those who i can trust.. there's only a handful..
It might sound pathetic, but i personally find it better..

Time serves as a filter.. As it goes by, some are left behind and lost..
and it is the few that is left that you keep close.. as they are the ones who have stayed through the good and the bad times in your life..

So don't be too harsh on yourself or even them... if they were to leave.. but smile, as they have made a great impact in your life.. and these are the people you will think about in years to come.. and you will definitely smile to yourself thinking of the different type of friends you have made throughout the years.

Enough said..

Friends are undeniably the most important people in our lives as they affect the way we live, speak and even think..
To that, i would like to thank all of those i've known throughout the years and called friend..

Cheers!

2007-11-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

YEA!! ZoukOut tix beybeh... Anyone else going? Do give me a buzz yea..

Anw, was at the multi-storey carpark when i stumbled upon this gorgeous car... It was Nissan 350Z...
Heard, its relatively cheap for a 3.5 L car man..

Damn... would love to have one in the future.. oh well.. enjoy the pics... ;)

LOVE THE RIMS... 20inch?

SIMPLY GORGEOUS...

2007-11-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

Despite all the problems lately, been feeling great lately...
Esp because ZoukOut is just around the corner!! Woohooooo!!
Anyone else going?

Anw, went to Acid Bar @ Orchard ytd.. The atmosphere there was simply great..
Esp when the live 'band' started playing..
there's nthn like raw sounds of guitars and singing,..
The staff there was friendly as well..

Can't wait to chill there again...

Ermm.. guys.. IndoChine nxt week?
hehehe.. =P

2007-11-08T01:53:00.000+08:00

Am i the one changing.. or is everyone else is?
Havent been feeling myself for awhile now..
Been pushing everyone away.. despite having problems to share..
After countless years of making countless friends..
Not a handful ive come to trust.. bcuz many just come and go..
what is left is mere memories.. and to that i shall hold to..

Havent been socializin much.. eventho im out always..
She's always in mind.. worst than a virus in a computer..
as deleting it wouldnt be an as easy as punching rows of buttons..
Tho i might be feeling rather emotional,. it seems to get me moving..
and motivated always..

At times, i really wonder how wonderful it would feel like to have someone by my side always..
But that thought would always end with something everyone is familiar with.. Relationship..
And this is exactly what i am not ready to commit into..
I simply have too much to accomplish before even thinking of a relationship rite now..
At least not until i have obtained the minimun 4Cs in life...

To side track alil..
This eoy dinner has been killing me lately.. there's just too many problems..
Yes! Problems.. NOT challenges anymore..
Just to list dwn a few..
- Hotels fully booked
- subsidaries i cant get
- Cubs not cooperating
- not getting 150pax which will lead to a "fine" of $2400!
and MANY MANY more which i dread to mention..
Just look at me.. its way past 2am and im bitching over such issues..
Urgh..

Have got to get this over and done with..

Till next time..

2007-10-29T20:47:00.000+08:00

It's been awhile since i blogged.. Work like crazy on weekdays and chiong like nuts on weekends..
Anyway, last Saturday.. went to have dinner with Salleh at Sidek's place as it was his Bdae n stuff.. after that.. went to Jewel bar @ Clarke Quay.. Man.. they had free flow of drinks before midnight.. haha.. wat else.. chiong la..

Watched Sidek and his frenz perform at the bar.. Cool performance man..
Danced fer awhile until arnd 3 am or so.. Pam and Dre fetched me from there.. and we searched for another bar to chill in.. but unfortunately all was either too full or closed.. so yea.. We drove down to West coast park to have Coffee and watnots...

Went back.. slept fer awhile.. and we were out for our raya outing.. it was just Me, Dre, Fie, yaya & pam.. and it took just the 5 of us to make it happen.. Cool outing man.. Pics will be out soon..

Oh well..
Looking forward to have sisha wit u guys...

Till then.,

Cold heart

2007-10-16T01:18:00.000+08:00

Its been a year now since we parted, but i just can't seem to let go..
Many i have consulted but answers the same..
All that is to do now is to move on..
And hopefully time will heal it all.

Not that i am stubborn to keep dwelling in the past..
Just that i can't see myself in the future, being without you.
Many Came, Many Went...
but feelings stays the same,
as none had the power to pry the heart open,
and to erase the memories that are still held dearly..

I do not wish for your return,
for i can't get myself to love you again..
The heart is not filled with love anymore,
but of pain..
An unbearable pain which was unforseen..
It is of this pain that numbs me deep,
and i await for the one..
The one who is able to resuscitate me,
and to salvage of what is left of the heart.

Time doesnt seem to heal,
instead, it kills..
as everyday it goes cold,
and i fear that one day, it might just close shut,
and to love someone with a dead heart is something i do not wish to do..

Much feelings to express,
Much love to share..
but to whom..
i wish to find,
Somewhere. . .

2007-10-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

Ladies and gents..
Can you feel it?
Can you hear it?
Can you smell it?!

I shall enlighten you...
The Club doors are opening really really soon..
at least to me and my frenz tho.. hahaa!!

Oh man... Its been awhile since i stepped into a club...
My whole body is itching... Listening to Mp3 or even the base from my 4.1 speakers wont pacify this thirst of mine to go crazy and be myself in there..

LET GOOD TIMES ROLL!!

Anyway...i was with Dre earlier.. was chillin under the block after prayers and there was these 3 Matreps.. one of them was apprently too drunk.. and was staggering... i was observing him.. when all of a sudden, he came up to us and said this...

"KORANG FANATIC KAPE?! TENGOK AKU MCM GITU?!!"
translation; why see see la..

i was just about to identify myself as an officer and wanted to arrest him for being drunk and incapable when his friend pulled him away from us..
Dammit..
His friend then apologized to us.. and they staggered away...
How dumb can one get?

Oh well.. shit happens.. if not for his friend.. he would be lodging in Jurong HQ with free food and drink..
haha..

till then ppl..

2007-10-03T10:48:00.000+08:00

Its here.. again.. the time of the year i dread at times.. Hari Raya..
Again.. i have not got anything to wear fer the occasion.. My dear Friend Nysa was suggestin me to get Baju Kurung with samping n stuff.. and recommended purple..
hahaa.. tt girl everything also purple.. for all you know she would even want her muffins purple.. kekeke..
Barney Girl...

The only fun part about Hari raya is the cash.. seriously.. oh my god.. esp now that im going KL in December with the guys.. a couple of hundreds might just be of an extra help.. hehe..
The other fun part of hari raya is MAKAN!!!! not just makan anyhow ok.. but makan stuff that are cooked only once a year.. lazy to list them out tho.. i'll leave it to your imagination.. :D

So back to the topic on wat to wear on Hari raya.. maybe i should just wear any casual-smart stuff (just like last year)... and not waste $ on baju kurung.. esp since im eyeing on buying myself a new Hp.. which is so much of a priority over some outfit which i wear once a year..
Oh well.. no ideas really...

Just lookin forward to go breakfast again with the guys.. only at a different restaurant this time..

Till then..

2007-09-27T12:02:00.000+08:00

So yea.. I've been a lazy bum these past few days.. Just simply tired..
Fatigue has really caught up with me and been having flu eversince..
Maybe bcos i have yet to have a good night sleep lately.. Even if i try sleeping early, i would just lie there in my bed thinking of everything thats either gonna happen or already happened..
Oh how i miss those long sleeps on the weekend... I need a holiday!!! FAST!!
My back's been killing me lately... aching all the time.. I really need a massage man.. Anyone up fer it?

Talking bout holiday, I was just discussing on going on a holiday this coming December with Rad, Bob, Dre, Farid and Zul ytd at PIZZA HUT.. Funny ppl.. From KL... to Batam... to Surabaya.. Hahaha... all sorts of interestin ideas from them..
So the plan now is to go chill & shop at KL and Rad's gonna be the one settling the accomodations n stuff.. Since he came up with the idea of us staying at the Suite at 400+RM per night..
So yea.. can't wait fer the outing..

Its been a couple of weeks we've been fasting.. and i can actually count the days i break fast at home.. Im rarely at home laa.. Either having prac or simply out with me buddies.. i have got to stay home more often.. and go fer terawih more as well... hmmmm...

Been invited to break fast at Ms BubbleTea's place this coming Saturday.. but im still thinking hard.. Frankly speaking.. i don't enjoy being in someone else's place.. i dont even feel comfortable at me granny's & aunt's place... let alone a stranger's place.. Oh well.. still deciding tho..

I so cant wait to ORD... i want freedom! i want! i want! i wanna be a student again... pleaseee.. :/

Oh yea.. someone asked me why i did not continue schooling after my Os.. and i kinda felt offended actually.. Does serving NS before pursuing a tertiary level education means you're stupid or smthn?
Its not like i failed my Os... for god sakes... I scored so much better than some 4e students during my time.. Not that i wanna brag yea..
The reason why i did not continue in Millenia Institute or even enroll in those Poly courses i was eligible for was because i have totally no interest in them.. at all..
So why waste my time doing smthn i dun enjoy doing? and end up like those Poly dropouts? who will eventually serve NS... but only after wasting a year or two?

Come to think about it.. im thankful i got into NS first.. if gives me time to think of what i want.. source for smthn of my interest and abilities.. So no regrets going Ns first.. and i dun even have to think of Ns anymore after the 3 years of Poly..

So whats wrong in serving NS now?

2007-09-25T12:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's Practical lesson was so far the best... The instructor was calm and relaxed.. i like it when the instructor don't rush me.. and only correct me after everything.. And that was exactly wat he did... other than that, he would just correct me in an oh-so-soft voice.. hahaa..
One of the things i really enjoy doing is to horn and flash those Jaywalkers.. hahaahaaa!! As if im not one of em.. =X
Oh ya.. during the later part, i nearly banged into this uncle la.. wth.. was just too engrossed looking at the hump ahead and didnt realise it was a pedestrian crossing.. LOL! Sorry Uncle! =P
Hopfully i get the same Instructor later tonight.. haha..

Till then..

2007-09-17T12:31:00.000+08:00

Oh god.. Today's practical lesson was the worst i've had so far.. wat a bummer.. My car stalled 3 times la.. Wth.. compared to the first prac which stalled only once.. haiz..
I was kinda nervous.. maybe bcos the instructor was abit of a perfectionist i think.. ergh.. Oh well, at least i still passed it... But i have got to buck up man.. gotta get my license latest by march nxt year!

hmm., Ok.. gtg rest.. going geylang with Salleh & gang later.. till then..

2007-09-07T22:35:00.000+08:00

Went to Swensens with Rani last week.. i was so stuffed with ice cream! just 2 sundaes and i was down.. haha.. here are some of the pics taken.. =P

Issit me or this pic looks so dreamy.. yum!

Was just too excited!!

HMMM!!!

On another note.. i recently went to join Xh in his Bubble Adventures.. haha.. so yeap.. check out the pics man.. IM IN A BUBBLE!! =D

Getting ready...

Bubble formed around me...

And poof!!! it burst... =D

A glimpse of an adult's life

2007-08-29T16:16:00.000+08:00

A glimpse of an adult's life

Serving ns isnt all about training & getting pushed around. At least not for me tho. I feel very fortunate to be in the position im in now.. Not because there's lil exercise, but because im constantly around the Regular officers who are very much already settled down. Responsibilities that clings to them are things such as Cars, Houses, family and inevitably money matters.. Many are even taking up part time courses in local unis and watnots..

Why do i feel fortunate? I myself am in the midst of planning my future after Ns.. Questions that are always lingering in my mind are,
#1 - Which institute next?
#2 - Will my pay be sufficient?
#3 - How will i afford a house?
#4 - How will i afford a car?
#5 - Will i ever have a family of my own?

These are some of the questions i think of EVERYDAY.. without fail.. The part of me which used to say "Im too young to think about it now" has vanished totally.. i have to face it huh.. Its time to plan ahead.. and far.. 10 years perhaps?
I feel so lucky not to be in the regulars' position.. seeing them juggling a PERMANENT job, studies, family, bills etc really makes me wonder how they do it.. it seems so routine..
I have to admit that im afraid.. alot.. and when i come to think about it.. its only 2 years back i was still schooling and playing around..
It's amazing how one can change in such a short period of time. Correct me if im wrong but I really think that an individual changes his mindset mainly due to the people around him.
And the term many of us are familiar with is
"peer pressure"
be it positive or negative.

Im determined to do the best i can. Yes, challenges are inevitable.. and sacrifices have to be made.. but i will not succumb to them that easily..
I hope my true friends that are reading this will support me along the way and may we succeed together in life. :)

Till then..

2007-08-18T16:14:00.000+08:00

Went to Zouk with Salleh & Fariz ytd night.. We reached there at arnd 2330hrs.. the best part was, this stranger came up to us telling us that they can allow one of us to enter for free as its 1 for 1 due to the absence of the DJ ytd nite. so yea.. Fariz went in for free.. Salleh & i had to pay 25 bucks for 2 tix.. haha.. we then divided 25 bucks by 3 so as to make it fair.. Thus, we actually entered Zouk @ $8+ each.. haha!

The first few moments were so damn boring la.. phuture was too damn packed leaving us no choice but to chill @ Zouk.. wth man.. after getting really bored with trance, we decided to try our chances @ phuture.. haha.. it was way better in there... met up with Rad, Amry, Hadri, Wak, Pamela and lots more in there.. and we even bumbed into familiar faces.. people like Brendon, Martin, Ed and loads more.. omg man! so many familiar ppl in there.. hahaa..

Anyway, im hoping to go to these places before or during fasting month;

Fariz's Chalet
Cool Deck
Break Fast @ Arab St
Go out with my dearest Nadiah

hmm... cant think of others yet.. :D

Went to BBDC for my FTE earlier on.. met Joseph @ the cafeteria eating some Not-nice-noodle.. HAHA! chat abit.. then went for my FTP & FTE.. really cartoon la.. i was like the slackest there... wear slipper, beanie, sweater.. had my headphones on.. and my sour plum drink with me.. it was a 45 mins thing.. i sat there.. drink drink.. listen music.. did my evaluation and ended in 15 mins... WITH A PASS! hahaha.. so heng ah.. lol.. gonna have my FTT on the 8th nxt month.. Wish me lucks yea! :D

Till then people!

2007-08-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

SO i was bored.. and really had nothing to do.. so yea.. i went to pimp my desktop alil... Take a look and comment on it yea? =D

2007-08-15T09:20:00.000+08:00

Life has been particularly different for me for the past couple of months. Suprisingly, I realise ive become abit more reserved compared to the ME years back. I seem to be abit more calm and collected.. and i choose my words carefully before speaking to others.

Not that im naggy or anythin.. but i am so disappointed upon looking at you behave. You speak like others have no feelings at all.. tho it might be fun and seems hilarious, i was sad to see that not once you took other's feelings in consideration. And its because of that, im sorry to say that ive lost all the respect i had for you. It could have been the last time we meet.. but me, on my part.. i wouldnt want to be the one souring a friendship.

It is through this i learn the true meaning behind the saying,
"To earn respect, you have to give respect"

All i did was to observe. Observe every little thing that happened.. i may have looked calm & relaxed on the surface., but inside.. i was desperately searching for answers... answers that would explain the way you acted.. It was beyond childish, beyond being immatured.. it was purely being Rude.. And i do not blame you for being that way.. for i understand that being considerate for others may not have been a practice.

On the bed i ponder all night.. tossing & turning.. restless as i still could'nt find the answers to your actions.. but now.. i know..

Only now i realise..
That you are not worth my time, care..
or even friendship...

I hope you change for the better.. and reflect on the things you have done..
I don't need apologies...
& i don't need compansations...
all i need is for you to grow up..
and hopefully one day.. you'll understand what i mean..

Till then..

2007-08-12T23:02:00.000+08:00

Todae was ok i guess... Went to town with Salleh.. Went to watch The Simpsons.. and i gotta say.. its not as good as Rush Hour 3.. but then again.. i understand the producers for simpsons are doing just the right thing.. keeping Simpsons original and all.. so yea.. 6/10 for Simpsons! and as for Rush Hour 3, i gotta give it a 8/10!! Their jokes are still as funny and orinal as the other 2 sequels.. so yea.. if you really want to Laugh out loud.. Rush Hr 3 would be the show to watch!

After buyin the tix @ Lido, went to TCC and had mint mocca and oreo cheese... OMG!! its seriously food u can die for man... it was just too heavenly.. hahaha.. After the movie, we went to shop alil.. damn la.. hate this part... went to Zara to find shoes.. but oh man.. got the type of shoe i wanted.. but they had this strap over the shoe.. which so so spoils it all.. so yea.. had to leave Zara empty handed..ergghh!
so we went to G2000 to get pants.. got this nice nice white pants.. but hell!! no size!! how unlucky can i get man.. seriously.. and Salleh was the one who got the pants he wanted.. errghh.. so i just got one white top and got the hell out of there.. tried walking arnd finding the pants i want.. but was disappointed again n again... oh well.. there's always nxt time yea..

2007-08-05T21:05:00.000+08:00

THE WAR AT HOME
A show i watched at MGM channel minutes ago.. its a family show.. and it touched me deep.. The show stars some of hollywood famous figures, Emilio Eztevez, Kathy Bates, Martin Sheen & Kimberly Williams.. Emilio Eztevez who stars as Jeremy Collier was forced to go to war in Vietnam for 2 years. Little did everybody know that war would change him totally.. Upon coming home, he bacame mentally ill and whenever he's left alone.. he would revive his war days and imagine bombs blowing around him... bullets being shot at him.. and those bitter memories of killing the enemy.
The whole family constantly argued with one another every single day.. and the mother (Kathy Bates) try everything she could to get her family back to normal.. it is becos of the undying effort of a mother trying to make a difference in the family that touched me.. and i hope those who seek these genre of movies might want to watch it some day..

Those who are interested might want to look up the webby..
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0118117/

Till then.. :) njoy!

2007-08-04T16:38:00.000+08:00

Just got back from GCM @ ZSS.. it was cool.. one of the shortest GCM ever.. haha.. Just as we started, i got arrowed to do minutes!! sian.. Later part.. i was given the task to Head the Group Day Dinner in December.. So gonna be busy with that soon..

Anyway.. before GCM, we had a scouts meeting in GSS... it was kinda weird doing knots once more.. and the weirdest thing was... i sat amongst the boys learning from XH the standard knots all over again... very interesting.. haha.. We brushed up on their Footdrill. . . etc etc..

Im so looking forward to plan this Dinner as it would be a invaluable experience.. and i can further improve my planning skills..
Till then..

2007-07-19T22:59:00.000+08:00

Ok.. Ive been pondering on this idea for 3 days now... and i am determine to do it in the near future.. I really want to visit the 3rd world countries e.g, Africa to help those in need..
It saddens me to see those kids having to suffer so much.. when people like us here are taking things for granted.. everyday we complain over our food ,weather, transport and everything else.. not realising that we're so fortunate even to have them... its seriously sad..

I read an email today about this tourist who was passing through a village in Africa.. He saw a mother chopping her own son's hand off.. reason? so that his son can go around begging and having him handicapped is an advantage over those who arent.. and upon seeing this the tourist accidentally dropped the piece of bread he was having.. and this made all the kids run towards that piece of bread eventho it was covered with sand, mud and watnots... he was so touched he went to the nearest bakery and bought all the bread he could with the little money he had.. after which he went back to the village and distributed the bread to them.. People were Bowing and thanking him over n over again.. and to come and think about it.. one man's pride could be bought with a 25cent bread..

How often do you come across such sitiuation..?? i want to do my part in helping them.. I've forgotten how good it feels to be nice and generous.. bcos the last time i did something like that was 6 years ago in Saudi.. where i changed 10 Riyals into 1 Riyal notes and i gave them out to the beggars there..

So yea.. i really hope that one day... i might get the chance to travel to these countries and do good... TIll then..

2007-07-17T20:13:00.000+08:00

I just realised something. Im the kind of person who tries to be there for a friend, be it a listening ear or a shoulder to cry on.. but when it comes to me being down, i tend to keep it to myself and not share... and no one knows how im feeling inside.. at least until i burst out or smthn like tt..
oh well.. anyway.. i came across tips on how to impress your boss..and i copied those which are kinda helpful.. so yeap.. do take a look.. :)

1. Be organized. Plan your next day before you leave work. Rank your tasks by urgency and importance and make a point of doing at least the top two items on your list.

2. Be punctual. Arriving for work or meetings on time (even early) shows you're enthusiastic, dependable and able to manage your life effectively.

3. Be resourceful. Don't run to the boss with every question you have or setback you encounter. Think things through first. If you must report a problem to the boss, develop possible solutions to present.

4. Broaden your horizons. Take advantage of company-sponsored training courses and volunteer for projects in areas outside your everyday expertise.

5. Stay informed. Keep abreast of industry and company trends by reading trade journals and attending professional association events.

6. Be courteous. Show respect and loyalty to your boss and speak well of her to others. (At the very least don't bad mouth her to anyone.)

7. Take care of your health. When you're run-down, productivity and ambition suffer -- as does your image.

8. Go beyond the call of duty. Take on added challenges, put in extra hours, and never use the phrase, "That's not in my job description."

9. Look and act promotable. Don't let anyone think you work because you have to.

Till nxt time! Bye!

2007-07-14T23:27:00.000+08:00

Oh yea.. went to MOS ytd bcos they told me to report late for work the nxt day.. damn happy la.. niwae.. MOS was darn boring at first.. but when ma fren came with the gals.. dang!! dang!! dang!! it went wild... hahaha.. hot sweaty wild man.. fuh.. ok enuff dickie.. tsk!

Anyway.. went there to celebrate my NPCO & APO friends who have just survived 7 months of Tracom.. hahaa.. Respect you guys man..!!

Looking forward to the next outing bros...

=D

2007-07-09T21:27:00.000+08:00

There has been alot blogs promoting items for sale... and i think its quite a smart and cheap way of adverising their stuff.
The only draw back about it is that you need to have alot of friends to help you spread the word., making your blog as popular as Ebay..

I came across Chaiyun's blog and she was doing just that... she makes this colourful wires that can are used as key chains., pendants and many more.. Do visit her blog if you wanna know more..

http://rainbowshopping.blogspot.com

I might be doing the same thing.. still considering tho.. haha..
So yeap.. do drop by her blog and take a look yea?

Till then... Bye!!

2007-07-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

ARGH!! cant believe this is happening to me... i kinda sprained my back a month ago.. it wasnt that bad,.. but i still played on the safe side and went to consult a doctor @ NUH... but wat did i get? Fucked up attitude from the Old shit ass doctor..

DOCTOR: If its not an emergency.., please don't come here again..
ME: Ouh.. ok.. sorry.. *HOW WOULD I KNOW IF THIS BACK PAIN IS SERIOUS OR NOT?! IF I KNOW.. I WOULD HAVE BEEN A DOCTOR BY NOW..!!*

DOCTOR: So you need MC?
ME: Ermm.. no pls.. i just need medicine..
DOCTOR: ouhk.. sure.. tts all..

So yea.. after waiting there like a fool for 4 to 5 hours.. i was eagerly waiting for my medicine.. BUT WAT DID I GET?! I got an MC... and NO medicine.. isnt that great? the best doctor ive met seriously.. and i thought NUH's standard was good.. pui! so i went to give the nurse back the MC and i just walked out of there... cb!

Tmr.. if the pain still doesnt subside.. im going SGH instead.. and if my back is seriously tt bad.. im gonna fuckin' sue that doctor man... old piece of crap!

I cant even walk fast now! cant bend to the side even... was deciding whether to go to the chinese doctor @ Bukit batok.. but i think i better go SGH first.. as i heard they have some back therapy program or smthn like tt..

Watever man.. i just want this pain to freakin disappear asap!!

2007-07-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

oh man! Its been the talk of the town.. kids and adults are going ga-ga over it.. and alot of people i personally know are going to watch it twice or have already done so!! Even DJ Jean Danker! wat is it im talking about?

THE TRANSFORMERS!!

It was great! down to the graphics, sound effects and screenplay.. it was too darn cool.. unlike some long-winded movies we all have seen and dread over them, TRANSFORMERS totally own them all, bcos not a single minute was spared for old hagged Generals and Presidents in conference rooms talking and debating bout war.. It was all down to business.. Loads of Fighting, Destruction, Fire Power, Tanks, Airplanes and definitely more Fighting.. they even included a tinch of drama and comedy to it... makin it all worth the money..

TRANSFORMERS is now among the very few movies that i would consider Really Fantastic or in other words, DIE DIE MUST WATCH.. haha.. so yeap.. those of you who are still considering whether or its worth watching.. go ahead.. Its worth every cent and penny u pay for that Golden Ticket.. hahaa..

Another thing i would like to add on.. I think that this movie would very much be a dream come true to those who practically grew up with TRANSFORMERS as their cartoon-to-watch during their childhood days.. Bcos as it went further down to my generation, it was more to POWER RANGERS.. and Transformers was not very popular then.. but now.. they can relive those childhood moments and can even brag on how much they know about the characters in Transformers to their children.. im saying this bcos recently, i was having lunch with my Seniors... they all have a familes of their own.. and they were all happily reminiscin about their experience with Transformers.. how bumblebee is supposed to look like.. etc etc.. and one even told us that he stole one of the Figurines from EMPORIUM.. how he managed to outrun the security guard that was chasing him and all.. All was smiling away.. and that got me quite sad.. bcos i'll be like them sooner or later.. and i am very sure that i will miss my childhood days very much... days where u nid not worry about anything.. it was perfect... it was a carefree life.. without any responsibilities..

With that, i would like to end my Long "Review" and thoughts of THE TRANSFORMERS...

BYE!!

2007-06-25T20:08:00.000+08:00

WOkay wOkayy,.. Its confirmed man.. goin Zouk again this coming Sat.. its Fm bday this time!!
Whose confirmed going?

ME!
Mj
Kenneth
Fm
Nigel
Mark
Wilson
Longfei

I think more are coming.. WooHooo!

Anyway, on Saturday... gonna attend my dear Scouter John's wedding.. after tt gotta go Suntec to watch TRANSFORMERS!! i got 4 tickets @ $1 each!! HAHAHA!! how cheap is tt people? and after which.. its off to Zouk.. gonna whack the Bday boy man..

2007-06-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

Yea.. went to Zouk ytd nite.. celebrated Rad's & Hadri's Bday there.. booked a table at the r&b area.. but ended up spending the rest of the nite at Phuture.. it was cool.. met new people.. rub here, rub there.. someone got drunk and vomited everywhere.. hahahaa..
Before we went zouk.. we went to have dinner @ Plaza Sing's swensens with Yanti.. then met up with Am & Jo outside Zouk.. we were joined by 3 more friends later on..
Oh man.. wild nite we had..

hmm.. planning to go there again nxt week tog with some other friends...

Till then..
Bye!

grp camp 07

2007-06-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

YEA!! im back from Group camp 2007!! oh man.. it seems that everyone enjoyed themselves there.. i think its the best camp i ever had.. it was because of the activities that we did there that were so much different from our usual sarimbun camp days..

One of the best experience was climbing Mount Panti.. oh man.. way too cool.. when we reached the peak.. i just stood there and watched the clouds went past.. NOTHING compared to Sg.. everything was norm until it began to pour.. oh man! it was freaking cold.. imagine having the wind so strong and cold... together with the rain and clouds etc.. Fantastically freezin!! hahaa.. the trip back was challenging for many as the trail became streams of water and mudslides instead.. many found leeches on their legs and blood was then a common sight..

Over at the campsite.. they had a paint ball range tog with a mini SOC where the boys got dirty there as well.. about 80 metres away from camp.. was the waterfall itself.. where all of us had so much fun playing in it and not to mention those few people who lost their spectacles in the midst of having fun.. hahaha..

The locals there were friendly and i think that the resort has got far more potential than wat it is now.. aint gonna be surprise to see it amongst the top few resorts in malaysia in years to come..
Jiayou! jiayou!

Hope to have more of such trips in the future.. =))

Anyway, i would like to Thank all the Ventures for helping me out with my first aid.. Love you people!! And to the other rovers/leaders who may be reading this, can i do program nxt time? =D ahahha!

k then.. till nxt time!!
GOODBYEEEESS!!!!!

2007-05-27T20:44:00.000+08:00

oh god.. wat a weekend full of Zees.. Slept alot esp todae.. woke up at 530am and went to tampines for THE GREAT JERSEY WORKOUT... and was given a free adidas jersey worth $40.. the jersey looks quite ok.. Black n Red,...

Dint go offroad as i was feeling unwell... dammit..
oh man,, i so wanna go out right now!! aargghhhh....

looking forward for PLTC and GRP CAMP.. 7 years of scouting.. and this is the first time we're gonna have grp camp overseas...gone with the gateways and shelters for the ventures.. haha.. lucky bastards..

K then.. till nxt time..

BYES!

NIE

2007-05-16T15:30:00.000+08:00

Ive been thinking ALOT about my future lately.. esp education.. i intend to enter NIE homec course.. the course is 4 years.. 3 years stay in Temasek Poly and the final year in NIE itself.. after which i will have to bond myself for another 5 years teaching a secondary school.. and if you do ur math, its 9 years in total.. and by then i'll be 29.. im scared..im just too young too think too far.. but if i were to take this on., it means 9 years of my life.. and do i have to stay with tt job forever..?! im not ready to commit!! neither do i want to be uneducated..
Some of you might realise.. 29 is the ripe age to settle down.. BUT IM SCARED!! HOW?!! the pay i'll be getting after the 4 years will be 2.2k.. it wont be enough!! will i be too old to change profession?! omg.. i feel so lost.. have yet to find the time to talk this out with my mom..
Yes its still 10 years down the road., but once i choose this line, its all the way..

Oh god.. pls pls pls guide me through this..

Majority of my frens now are in a relationship.. i cant deny the fact thaty i do miss being in one.. but then again., its just too troublesome.. and im not ready to commit.. all i wanna do now is earn loads of money, finish my National Service and get back to studying.. maybe only by then will i be ready.. :)

OK then.. gtg..
ByeBye!!

2007-05-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

Hello people out there!! sorry for not updating... been busy enjoying life.. haha.. spending my time cycling almost every weekend.. go out when the sun sets and come back home when it rises.. im nocturnal during weekends! haha...

Anyway, celebrated Ah pong's B'day ytd nite.. had BBQ at ULU.. it was fun.. esp when it comes to the part we tied ppl up and beat them up.. haha.. Had another bbq just now.. but this time its with me family.. supposedly celebrating mothers' day.. haha..

Few days back, went cycling with ULU to Labrador park.. the week before.. we cycled down to orchard... damn fun la.. imagine cycling with more than 10 ppl.. but the best thrill is to be chased by dogs.. my god.. wat adrenaline.. wonder where we're going next weekend... gonna enjoy my weekends this month of MAY cos in June.. i have no time for cycling..

Im looking forward to GROUP CAMP!! taman negara!! woohooo!

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2007-04-19T17:50:00.000+08:00

WOOHOO!! Life's GREAT man! everything's goin fine.. in fact, better than fine.. somehow managed to get back in contact with friends i miss so much... and everyone around me seems so nice...

first aid today was great as well.. i was kept being called out to demonstarte stuff... and i even introduced new technics n watnots to the class.. had our theory test today.. and i miraculously scored FULL MARKS!! Hahaha!! power man.. Practical is tmr!! hopefully it goes fine bcos this time the manneqin we do our cpr on is connected to some graph or smthn like tt.. so no mistakes can be made.. NONE!! oh man.. the first aid card is so damn chio la.. its from raffles medical group..looks so so professional.. better than the organisation i previously took my first aid..

K la.. gtg watch spongebob!!

BYEBYE!!

ALUS: IT AINT A SIN TO EAT CHOCOLATE OK.. hehee.. buy some for me la.. =))

2007-04-18T21:54:00.000+08:00

Went back to HTA for first aid course today.. oh man.. finally met some of my long lost squad mates.. oh man.. so much huggings goin on..esp by me.. hahahaa.. im so going to treasure this comin chalet with em.. aint gonna sleep!!

Anyway, first aid course was funny la.. the instructor is SUPER slack... we spent most of the time doing stuff not related to first aid.. hahaa.. but then again.., at the end of the day.. he gave us a fast and short verbal quiz and let us off 1 1/2 hours early.. i had to go back to Jurong bcos i didnt bring my peak cap along.. all those (exp 1) from J div didnt bring their peak caps.. hahaa.. Attp..

k la.., gtg eat chocolate... weee..
BYEBYE!!

2007-04-17T22:30:00.000+08:00

hmm.. today.., i went to Pioneer Sec bcos they had some evacuation exercise.. Scdf was there as well.. usually its me as a student who sees police officers in school.. but now.. its the other way round.. and it felt kinda cool.. they even had a small buffet fer us all..
Had quite alot of work today.. so yea.. tired!!

i skipped my gym session ytd!! oh man..just too tired after work... eergghh!! guess i'll go tmr then.. hmm..
Anyway.., i'll be going to HTA from tmr until the week after the nxt.. for first aid and some other computer courses.. oh man.. guess im gonna be a lil bz..

Niwae.. at times i do miss having a special someone by my side.. and to just rant at her.. knowing she's listening to ma problems and tt she cares...
but when i give it a deeper thought.., i find that i do not want to commit in any relationship rite now... it may sound crappy or watsoever.. but im not ready for a relationship yet..

Im just too busy with my everyday life...

hmm.. k then..

BYE!!

- Pestering -

2007-04-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

I've been pestering my Boss for quite some time.. i kept telling him i wanna do more OPS and nt just stay in the office so much.. and today i think he finally gave up and told me that he's gonna ask the higher authority for clearance. After which he asked me if wanna tag along with the NPCOs or simply go out with him.. and my standard answer would always be : ANYTHING LOH!

hahaa.. so yea.. am lookin forward for more OPS!! weeeeee... anyway.., today went to welfare side to get tickets to Wild Wild Wet.. but unfortunately.. someone took em olreadi!! SO SUAYY!! 4 FREE TICKETS LEIIII!! DAMMIT.. they told me to take the tickets for the month of may.. but i obviously dumped the idea.. cos i wanted to get the tickets for this coming saturday as im having chalet as well... oh well.. guess i'll be paying if i wanna enter WWW..
$$ KA-CHING! $$
$$ KA-CHING! $$

K la.. till then..
BYE!! BYE!!

First Day in office

2007-04-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

Okay... todae was my official first day in my department.. My boss is kinda cool.. talkative just like me.. i like his style of working bcos when its time to slack.. he'll slack like there's no tmr.. but when there's smthn to be done.. he'll get it done asap.. so yea.. i hope we can work well tog for another 1 1/2 years..
The seniors there brought me arnd so i can get use to the place.. oh man.. got one inspector.. fuhh... chio man.. anyway., i managed to find out some supernatural stuff tt happens frequently there.. aint gonna blog it tho..
My senior is gonna ORD soon, which means..... im gonna get my own personal table pretty soon.. haha.. oh ya.. im gonna go back to HTA from 18 to 27 for some courses..

Cant wait for the 21st.. CHALET!! Wwweeeee.... its nt the chalet tt excites me.. but the people who are gonna be there.. MY SQUAD MATES!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Miss you people so SO so SO so much man..

k then.. till tmr..

GOOD NITE!!!

It's Alive!!

2007-04-10T19:47:00.000+08:00

oh man.. cant believe my blog actually reappeared.. anyway, life has been different ever since we had to go our seperate ways.. but hey.. i gotta move on..

Basic training in HTA was great.. met alot of people and even made good friends.. Now im posted to Juliet Division (Jurong) as an SA for CPO.. CPO stands for Criminal Prevention Officer anyway.. one example wat my department do is, hold talks in schools about crime prevention.. so yea.. i'll be staring work tmr..

Am planning to go shopping this cming sunday.. but rumours says that those who got their marksman pay before-hand.., which is 200 bucks, they will deduct it from this coming pay.. bcos we're supposed to receive our marksman pay only before ORD.. sian man.. so sian..

hmm.. there'll be an investiture hike this coming sat.. i might not be going tho.. bcos i might have a gathering with my police friends.. missing them so so so much.. haiz..

gotta go sleep olreadi..

Tataa..

yipeee!!

2006-11-18T00:04:00.000+08:00

yipeee...
ytd was my turn to plan an outing with her.. so i decided to meet near her workplace.. so we met at Marina Square.. 2 days before tt.. i went to buy her the Hady Mirza album as a surprise.. bcos i told her nt see the album without me.. and we can buy it tog.. hahaa.. the next day.. i went to book movie tix to the show she wanted to watch.. STEP UP!! was a freakin' cool show man.. i managed to get the couple seats too.. =))

we went to Sakae Sushi to have our dinner... had a blast of a time.. from playing with Wasabi to challenging our chopstix skills.. hahaha.. sweet..
We then went shopping and ALOT of stuff happened la huh.. not gonna post it.. too personal.. watever it is.. she's just so sweet and can really make me laugh alot..

after tt.. we took a cab home.. and she sent me home first.. i didnt want to.. but as usual la.. her pursuasive skills are very powerful.. hehee.. so so sweeeet of her.. arrghh..

LOVE YOU LOTS.. <3

woots

2006-11-09T03:01:00.000+08:00

okok.. i think i feel much much better now after hours n hours of pouring my feelings to her on the phone.. tho she's busy settling her paperwork n stuff.. deep inside.. i noe she still loves me.. and so do i.. :))

Im really happy that she's going abroad to continue her studies.. (am a lil sad tho) but hey.. its her future u noe.. dunno when its my turn to go Uni.. she's so far ahead of me.. and soon.. im going to be serving my NS.. hmm.. gonna get it over n done with.. and back to books..

i was wondering how life would be like without her.. the times we spent together until late nites.. all the jokes we shared.. the hugs.. etc.. whenever we're tog.. the world doesnt even exists..
those eyes of hers..
her voice..
haizz... gonna miss them all..

i'm so gonna make these few months really memorable... :)

ANYWAY.. THOSE PPL WHO TAG ANONYMOUSLY.. I HOPE U UNDERSTAND LA K.. IM SURE U BUGGERS GOT UR OWN BLOG OR WATSOEVER.. U NOE HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO HAVE PPL TAG ANONYMOUSLY.. ITS IRRITATING AND ANNOYING.. SO IF U WANNA TAG.. PUT YOU FUCKING NAME.. YOUR MOM GAVE U THAT FER A FUCKING REASON.. SO IF U THINK YOU DUN WANNA TAG USING YOUR NAME... DUN TAG!!

THANK YOU.. & HAVE A NICE DAY.. :))

sian

2006-11-06T13:51:00.000+08:00

haiz.. life is so unfair.. just when my world was beginning to brighten up.. this had to happen.. im lost.. i really am.. what am i supposed to do now? wait? forget?
haiz..

i love you..

- Wee! -

2006-10-28T01:45:00.000+08:00

- Wee! -

wey wey wey ... today was my darling's turn to plan an outing.. and yet again.. she never let me down.. :)) her mom fetched me at my place and drove us to vivo city!! again... but its not the place tt matters really.. its the people around you tt really matters... anyway.. the journey there was quite ok.. talked to her mom calmly n stuff... (hopefully she likes me...hahaa) we reached vivo city and we split from her mom.. cos she dun want to kacau daun la..hahaa.. bcos she was with her dear also la.. so yea.. we went to have dinner.. but b4 tt we bought movie tix.. we watched DOA.. hahaa.. it was an OKOK show la huh.. nthn special.. the story plot was simple n stuff.. so yea.. we bought the 9:50 show.. after dinner.. we walked arnd fer awhile.. and... she brought me to Ben&Jerry's!! she's just soo sweeeet.. it was part of her plan tho.. so yea.. the best part was she knew wat i like to eat.. hahaa.. smarty pants.. oh ya.. the Ben&Jerry's n movie were all her treat.. hehe.. since she's the one who planned fer it.. wat a darling..

Am really in love with her.. can say she's my dream girl man.. omg.. im nuts nuts nuts!! anyways.. After the movie.. we took a cab back to her place.. and it was already 1245.. super late late.. i then took the last train to kranji.. and took a cab back home..

oh yea.. we're also planning to go Genting highlands tog!! hopefully before NS huh.. wweeeeee... dammit.. im missing her olreadi..
okok.. enuff crap.. i gtg.. got ventures tmr..

TATA!! ^^

2006-10-23T23:32:00.000+08:00

yea man.. went to causeway point today to change the jeans i bought.. too tight la.. was supposed to go shopping with fir n rad.. but dammit la.. tt fir slept.. i so wanna buy this singlet at taka with floral patterns at the back.. wa seh.. damn chio.. can use fer beach wear.. fuh!!
Anyway.. i met wilson n mark at causeway.. wilson went to repair his kuku phone.. after tt.. we went off bcos i had migraine.. AGAIN!! irritating la..
So i went to my aunt's place.. since everyone way there to have some family gathering n watnots.. after which.. we went to JP to shop la.. wa seh.. the stuff i like all no size la.. wat la.. sibei sian tiao..
I ate some belgian chocolate ice cream.. and went to Mc cafe after tt to have my Caramel Frappe.. at first it tasted like SHIT!! so i complained la.. and they made a new one fer me.. and it tasted much better.. woots!!

oh ya.. let me see what i bought for hari raya this year.. hmm.. ONE BELT!! hahahaha.. wa seh.. really bo liao la.. i'll simply wear my normal stuff tmr.. presentable can liao la hor.. next year then buy those traditional clothes.. fer now.. slack aahhh....

Am planning to go shopping this cmin wednesday.. anyone interested? call me...

TATA!!

- Confessions -

2006-10-22T21:10:00.000+08:00

- Life is gamble -

helllooo... i went to celebrate Deepavali ytd with Wilson, Pong, Mark, Ginesh, Rani, Aaron, and Matthew.. wa seh.. Ate alot la.. we went to Rani's place first to makan.. Nana, Mashita, Janise and Jennnifer were there as well.. but they went back earlier.. the rest of us went to Ginesh's place to celebrate.. his family threw a suprise party fer him.. so we went also la.. haha.. his dad was power la.. he was somehow fond of Weirong alot.. maybe bcos pong cute and handsome.. and he looks like some singing IDOL.. because of his tan from fishing..

Anyway.. his family served us loads of food.. liquor and beer.. knn.. so power.. we went back around 12:45 am in the morning.. im planning to invite ma close buddies nxt sat to makan.. These are the people who were there when i was down.. these were the people when i needed help.. and these were also the people who turly noes me inside out.. LOVE U PEOPLE!!

okok.. anyway.. when i got home.. i was on the phone with her... and this time.. i confessed everything to her .. and i was so happy when she felt the same way too.. muahahahahaha!!

SO SO SO SO SO HAPPY!!!

Now.. all i have to think about is when to drop the bomb... but die die must be before i go NS man..
Oh ya.. i think i wana scrap the chalet idea la dey.. since i wanna celebrate only with my close buddies.. i'll plan a date to go club together.. i think its a better idea.. chalet waste money la.. i rather use the money to enjoy with my darling..
WILSON WOULD AGREE WITH THIS... YES WILSON??

hahaa.. ok la...
GTG!!!
BYEBYEBYEEE!!

LoVee Youuu Babe!!

- zouk out -

2006-10-21T15:24:00.000+08:00

hmm.. its been awhile since i blogged.. been very busy with being in love.. hahaa.. been goin out with her alot and goin home late.. and even when we're not out tog.. we'll be hanging on the phone till very late... i dunno what issit about her tt makes me melt.. she's simply too sweet.. kekeke..

Anyway... We plan to go Tioman next year.. WOOHOO!! hope everything goes well.. omg.. it would be like some mini honeymoon.. lol.. sitting by the beach.. admirin the sun set.. and sippin wine or smthn.. hehee.. im crazy bout her man..

Oh yea.. Batam trip will be on 8 n 9 of Dec.. im planning to enjoy non-stop b4 NS.. so.. right after i get back from tioman.. i wanna go Zouk out!! weee... I'm also thinking of making a 5-day chalet..gonna invite only people important in ma life.. still considering tho.. dammit.. So many things to do.. so lil time...

okla.. dun wanna blog olreadi..

TATA!! =))

I LOVE YOUUU!! ^^

- vivo city! -

2006-10-08T23:52:00.000+08:00

- NS -

yipee.. just got back from Vivo city!! went with her.. had quite a fun time.. we went to Toys R Us and we played around with the toys there.. hahaa.. she's so cute..
Anyway.. the moment i left Toys R Us... i got a sms from ma bro.. he told me i received an enlistment letter.. and im posted to SCDF... I was so heartbroken man.. damn damn down.. So me and her went to sit by the sea to chat things out... was really really sad man...

BLAH BLAH BLAH.. (CANT TELL U EVERYTHING TT HAPPENED)

anyway... after i sent her home... i went to bazaar near her place and bought my brothers Ramleee Burger.. the Cab uncle was one Tok cok king.. he showed my his DVD player la.. Handphone la.. and his so called powerful earphones,,, he said it cost him 400+... before tt// he ask me.. " u want go by sungai kadok or highway..?"
i replied.. " fastest way la uncle...which one faster?"
he then said.. "how fast u want? nowadays young ppl like to ask questions.. i must ask them back also"

i just kept quiet.. irritating..

I was laughing my ass off la when he said the sound from his 400+ earphones is friendly to ears.. wont spoil eardrums.. simiLj sia.. sound is sound la noob..anyway.. i paid his $10.70 and quickly left the cab.. irritating shit.. i was already so down.. he talk crap..

When i reached home.. i quickly went to see my enlistment letter... OMG!!
I GOT POLICE FORCE!!!
SUPER SUPER HAPPY CAN?!?!?

i was so bloody reliefed.....

i hafta book in on the 12 of Dec.. hahaa..
guess i'll continue my studies after Ns...

tts all fer now yea...
TOODLES!

- i promise -

2006-09-30T23:22:00.000+08:00

- !!YAY!! -

woohoo!! im so so happy can... SHE'S back!! yes!! she's back in my life once more... WOOTS!! and this time.. im not gonna make the same mistakes i once did... gosh.. hearing her voice over the phone makes me miss her so so much.. herh..

I swear not to be the same fool i once was.. im different now.. all i want is to be with you babe.. OMG.. sounds so emo.. hahaa.. watever man.. hope she doesnt noe tt i have a BIG crush on her still... dammit!!

I LOVE HER!! AAHHH..... >
I dun care bout ur past man. i really dun.. i wanna start anew..
I hope im successful this time...

yada yada yada... blah blah blahh...

i should not blab bout this nimore.. im just gonna share it with my homies..

Mark, Wilson, Pong .. where the fuck are you ppl man... i need ya'll.. hahaa..

BYEEEEEEE!!!

~ FUN ~

2006-09-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

- Irritatingly Me -

HEEELLLLLOOOOOO!!
I'm backk... i went out with wilson and mark yesterday.. blanja them coffee bean,, then it was off to play pool!!

Coffee bean there was whacked.. cos there wasnt any smoking corner.. we couldnt care less.. we just smoke..
there was a big Auntie Sale at Sun plaza... haha.. tops n watnots were at 3 to 5 bucks.. omg.. the aunties went berzerk.. chionging at the clothes as if they had expiry dates on em all.. hahaa..

Anyway.. the fun began at Jurong when we played pool.. haha... i knew Wilson was a lil bit dulan with me cos i bragged too much.. hahaha
Before every game.. i would say.. " I THINK I'LL LOSE THIS GAME SIA..."
but end up winning anyway.. aahahahh..

I stayed in the game fer quite long and so i told wilson..

ME: "EH.. NEXT TURN U FIGHT WITH MARK K..."
"YOU KNOW WHY I LET U REPLACE ME LATER EVENTHO IM WINNING THIS GAME?"

Wilson: "WHY LEI?"

ME: BECAUSE EVEN LEGENDS NEED TO REST...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Niway.. im planning to change my song to hari raya songs.. hahaa.. i'll play different songs & change em whenever i got the time yea..

btw.. below are some of the pics taken ytd!! ENJOYY!!

~ Emo ~

2006-09-23T10:56:00.000+08:00

- EMO SHIT -

hmm.. i have not been feeling well these past few days.. something is just outta place somewhere.. i aint eating as much as b4, i get very restless at night, thus gettin very lil sleep making me darn tired the next day.. god damn it.. what issit that's missing..

hmm.. anyway, im goin out with Mark and Wilson today.. plannin to treat them coffee bean..all i nid now is some time off with my friends, some ice blended coffee shit, a plate of cheesecake and a pack of ciggie..

Oh gosh.. Fasting month begins on Sunday!! weee.. i like the fasting month.. the part where the extended family be it paternal or maternal side gathers to break fast together.. ouh man., firstly, there would be tons of food.. secondly.., we can do some cathing up.. and after that whole month of fasting.. woooww weeee.. its "pay day" hahaha.. lotsa green packets..

Cant wait to buy THAT pair of rolla blades..
gonna work out.. and blade with those chickies in bikinis.. lol..

Oh yea.. i was laughing my arse off when this happened.. I'VE FORGOTTEN BOUT HER!! HAHAHAHA.. when she smsed me some shit sms.. i even fergot tts her number.. lol.. ur officially DELETED in ma mind,..
I mean c'mon la.. so many chickies around me.. of cos its that easy fer me to forget her.. Single on the go? hahahaa..
im the one at the winning end..

I just love my new motto man..
LOVE LIFE; GET PAID, GET LAID

hahaa..

ok man.. gt to go get ready.. its coffee time!!

~ The Family Man ~

2006-09-17T01:16:00.000+08:00

~ The Family Man.. ~

Wow!! i just watched the family man on Tv.. the one Nicholas Cage woke up one morning.. from a playboy to a husband and father of 2..
At first.. he couldnt adapt very well but in time.. he bagan to fall in love with the new life given to him.. but just as everything was about to go right., he woke up in his old apartment.. and back to the rich and city life..

and it was from there he searched for his wife to be...

cant belive i cried sia.. omg..
wat a touching story man..

Anyway.. i had backwoodsman cooking today.. it was fantastic.. seriously was..
and i was also promoted to chairman of my executive committee..

and yea.. FUCK U PEOPLE WHO CAME DOWN JUST TO CRITIZE MY WORK AND SAY U CAN DO BETTER.. SERIOUS MAN..

FUCK YOU!!

Thanx..
tts all for now..

bye..