Everywhere I looked, I couldn’t find it.

I looked into my friends, it wasn’t there.

I looked into my family, it wasn’t there.

I looked into my love one, it wasn’t there.

I searched deep within myself.. still it wasn’t there.

The will to strive for excellence, it was nowhere to be found.

Nor is the will to even leave bed.

Falling ill reassured me that hope is lost.

I searched places unimaginable.. even in movies/clips.

For I was in desperate need of guidance.

Realising that there are worse scenarios out there didn’t comfort me as it once used to.

As I believe that one should look up and compare to those up high instead of those down below.
But it does keep me down here on earth.

I need time, by myself.

To find my soul. My motivation. My will.

I’ve searched everywhere..

I need time still.