Am i the one changing.. or is everyone else is?
Havent been feeling myself for awhile now..
Been pushing everyone away.. despite having problems to share..
After countless years of making countless friends..
Not a handful ive come to trust.. bcuz many just come and go..
what is left is mere memories.. and to that i shall hold to..

Havent been socializin much.. eventho im out always..
She's always in mind.. worst than a virus in a computer..
as deleting it wouldnt be an as easy as punching rows of buttons..
Tho i might be feeling rather emotional,. it seems to get me moving..
and motivated always..

At times, i really wonder how wonderful it would feel like to have someone by my side always..
But that thought would always end with something everyone is familiar with.. Relationship..
And this is exactly what i am not ready to commit into..
I simply have too much to accomplish before even thinking of a relationship rite now..
At least not until i have obtained the minimun 4Cs in life...


To side track alil..
This eoy dinner has been killing me lately.. there's just too many problems..
Yes! Problems.. NOT challenges anymore..
Just to list dwn a few..
- Hotels fully booked
- subsidaries i cant get
- Cubs not cooperating
- not getting 150pax which will lead to a "fine" of $2400!
and MANY MANY more which i dread to mention..
Just look at me.. its way past 2am and im bitching over such issues..
Urgh..

Have got to get this over and done with..

Till next time..